In Her Eyes

What we are doing it is wrong,
Everyone tells me this is so,
The time and the place are not right,
This is not what I am supposed to do.

But what they don't understand,
Are the feelings I feel,
When I am with her, around her,
I can feel myself learning to love again.

In her eyes I see amazing things,
I can picture a future together,
I can see myself saying "I love you",
And I can see her telling me too.

In her eyes I can seem my children,
A home together, hopes and dreams,
I can picture myself on one knee,
Asking her to be my wife.

In her eyes I see trust and love,
Acceptance of what I am inside,
I can see fear and vulnerability,
Not sure if she is ready to go there.

In her eyes I can see regret,
Over past pain and present hardship,
I can see strong will and hope,
That life and love are in her future.

I dare not tell her how I feel,
I don't want to be rejected,
I don't want to destroy what could be,
By revealing my feelings too soon.

I want friendship to be enough,
To learn to be my own person,
To be okay being alone,
To learn to love myself for me.

But it breaks my heart,
To let her go, to not hold on,
I regret so much in my life,
And I don't want to regret losing her.

But they say to me all the time,
If you love her let her go,
And if it is meant to be, she will return,
I hope I can live up to that.

I just need to remember,
The look in her eyes when she looks at me,
The things I see there keep me going,
In hope I will see those things for real.