Inconsiderate

Once again, we go somewhere together

Once again, you somehow

Forget I exist

Not just in these certain situations either

But everywhere, all the time

Sure

You ask me every once in a while

If I feel ok

I suppose I should feel privileged

You even take those few seconds out of your day

To acknowledge me

I wonder why I even stick around

Wonder still more

The reasons we even got married

I saw this in you a long time ago

I told myself

All in all, it's still a good situation

But for who?

I notice everything about you

Every breath, every step, every look

Especially those ones towards someone else

And then you tell me I'm paranoid

And I that I have no friends

Yet, nothing I do matters

If I pretend to be happy

And let you do what you want

Nothing changes

If I yell

You give me an extra two seconds of time

But still

Nothing changes

If I do and say nothing

I get more hurt and angry

But other than that

Nothing changes

I look around our home and everything is about you

Most of these clothes, dirty dishes, movies and things

Even where we live and the dog that lives here

Everything is about you

Every choice made by you

If I don't take care of all these things

Nothing changes

Except that the piles just get bigger

I keep telling myself I am done

But I don't really know what this means

This may sound harsh

But I know it doesn't even matter

Because you will never read this

Even if you did

You would never understand

I just wonder when enough is enough