Interview with a Psychic: Kelly's Journey

I met Kelly about 2 years ago through a yahoo e-mail group. During this time, she's told me and the other members of the group some fasciniating stories about her experiences with the paranormal and giving readings. She's also shared so many interesting facts about her regular day-to-day life. I found her stories fascinating and wanted to learn more about how she got to this point in her life and how she does what she does. In the following interview, we discuss guides, her childhood and she even gives me some interesting information about my own life. Will what she saw for me happen? Only time will tell.... and I'll be sure to share if and when it does.

Jamie B: To start of, how long have you known you can do psychic readings?

Kelly: Ok, I've been able to conciously do a reading for about 1-1/2 years. When I look back, I can see that I've always had some premonition and some foreknowledge of things, but didn't know how to use it.

Jamie B: Can you tell me about some of your earliest memroies of that?

Kelly: Well at about age 8, I recall that my mother and brother were purposefully working to try to read each others thoughts. Like mom would hold up a playing card from a deck and Kevin, my brother, would try to guess what it was. I always felt jealous, but also confused, because I always knew. But they didn't ask me. I couldn't understand why he didn't know. "Doesn't everyone do this sort of thing," I always thought. I often also would have a certain dream and smell roses and know that someone was going to die, who was close to me. I don't remember the dream until I have it, but I know it when I have it.

Jamie B: until I have it? or until it happens?

Kelly: When I have the dream, I wake up knowing that it is the dream that I always have when there is someone close to me who is going to die.

Jamie B: oh, ok

Kelly: Is that a little clearer?

Jamie B: Yes. What was that like? Did it ever bother you? Did you talk to anyone about it?

Kelly: It only bothered me because I was jealous of the relationshiop my mother and brother had. I never talked about it because I didn't know how, exactly. Also I was quite aware that other people didn't talk about these things and if even a little hint was let out, people would really look at me weird, and I was already treated horribly by other children, so I didn't want to encourage them to treat me even worse, so I kept my mouth shut. Didn't tell anyone, but sometimes I'd say something like, oh yeah, didn't I tell you that was going to happen. Or I'd say, hey isn't grandma coming today? And she'd be there without telling anyone she was coming. I just knew these things and since I didn't make a big deal out of it, I guess no one else did either.

Jamie B: What kinds of things would the kids say?

Kelly: Well I would get teased, Miss Know-it-All what else do you know smarty pants. If I tried to stay away from them and like help a teacher a lunchtime to keep away from everyone, they'd call me teacher's know-it-all pet, and harrass me about it. I used to have girls follow me home and jump me, literally. They would walk behind me and give me wedgies or flat tires (you know step on the back of your shoe), push me down, grab my books and throw them down, scatter my papers. I once, was under a dog pile of like 4 or 5 girls, my girlfriend just standing there shocked, and I got out and was near an adult friend of my mothers. I banged on the door screaming and pleading to come in and they let me in and called the police. Then I had to have a police escort to and from school. Oh that really helped the teasing and bullying. So I learned to really keep to myself.

Jamie B: Did you ever try and block yourself? Ignore the impressions you were getting?

Kelly: Well yeah, I just ignored everything. I would rarely say a thing and pretty much, the visions, or things I was hearing went away. But I still had this voice in my head, my mom always called it my conscience. I heard this all the time, I would have conversations with the voice in my head, have arguments, try things out - you know like saying a speech or writing a poem in my head, and then my conscience would tell me how to make it better. Now before you call the looney bin, I've since learned that this was and is still my spirit guide.

Jamie B: Can you tell me a little about your guide?

Kelly: Yes. She is Greek appearing in dress and features. She has long brownish hair. She is very slender. Her name is Tracy. When I have seen her, I have been on The Other Side, I believe. I've seen her standing on a marble stair with a pillar of marble next to her. Its like she's in the front of a building or a gazebo. I talk to her every night. I usually only see her out of the corner of my eye in my doorway before I sleep. I know she's there to hear about my day. When I saw her on The Other Side, it was because I asked in a prayer to see her. She has a sense of humor. She is patient and understanding. She never gives me a hard time but will sort of give me the impression she has her hand on her hip and shaking her head kind of like, I can't believe you are so thick!

Jamie B: Can you name a couple of instnaces where this happened? What didn't you do?

Kelly: Well, yeah, ok, one time very recently, I was asked by a friend in the Yahoo group to see if I could see anything about our past life together. I tried to concentrate and think and I heard, she was Mary. There is Jesus, see him? And you were her sister, look you are holding hands. Well I told the gal in the group asking me that I saw we were sisters during the time of Jesus and that we were holding hands. She said, yes, I'm Mary, and you are my sister Beth. I was in tears and told her that I knew her name was Mary, but I just kept saying, no, no, no that can't be right. So I didn't tell her. In the back of my mind, I could see my guide, Tracy, shaking her head. And I could hear, gently, when will you learn, its okay to say it all, I won't let you know it unless you can say it. In a sense I was giving a reading. In a group that I belonged to before, I would tend to hold back and second guess information when I was asked or when information was given to me, and I wouldn't share it all. Then someone would validate the information and add more, the same thing I had heard but didn't share. Then I'd say, Yeah, that's what I saw too. I just sounded like I was trying to match my thoughts/sight to what they remembered. So, Tracy would shake her head. Tsk, Tsk. So, I try to say everything I hear, see, smell, etc., and let the person I'm reading for make the decision about how it fits. I like the client to not tell me anything until I am sure I am done and then respond. That way it doesn't taint my reading. That works best.

Jamie B: What made you become more open about your abilities?

Kelly: Well when my mother-in-law was dying, I read James Van Praagh's books about dying and Heaven and knew that I found truth. I also saw The Other Side just before she died when I was praying and begging God to help Mom pass over. To let her know it was okay. She gave me a gift, I now understand it was Mother God, Azna, who helped me see, because it involves emotion. But I knew that I had to start looking at these things that made much more sense to me, things that were very similar to Native American beliefs. Then my mother told me about Sylvia Browne on Montel. I sort of laughed at mom, thinking, how silly of you to believe something like this mom. But then I watched her. My whole world exploded. I suddenly had answers to things I'd thought no one could answer. I had answers as to what that voice in my head was. I had answers to religion. Things that I had questioned and never made sense suddenly began making sense. Mom also then gave me a book of Sylvia's. "Adventures of a Psychic." I started devoring her books and books by James, John Edward, his television show, trying to comprehend that which is never openly talked about in polite circles. I began learning and I haven't stopped.

Jamie B: How has people's reaction to you changed now as an adult compared to when you were a child?

Kelly: Well they don't beat me up. LOL Actually I've found a lot more tolerance and understanding. Of course, people I tell about my abilities are people generally I've known for quite a while and they know me first as the person I am and know that I don't lie or try to pull something over on them. Then when I tell them, like my boss for instance, I told her and said, "I hope you don't think I'm crazy or just blowing smoke." She said, "Why would I? You've never lied to me before, why would you now?" I told her I wouldn't and gave her the message her sweet mother had given me. And yes, her mother had passed over, it was about 4 years after she passed. Another lady that I hadn't known long, but one that I had an instant connection with, I was able to give a message to her for her brother-in-law from his just deceased mother. (Well she passed about 6 days prior). Anyway, when I told her and proved that I could not know these things except by talking to this woman, she was fine with it and calls me her babygirl.

Jamie B: How did she react to that?

Kelly: My boss' reaction was a tearful and joyful thank you. She needed to hear from her mom and although she is Catholic was hoping somehow she could hear from her. So, I answered her prayers basically. She wasn't totally foreign to it, she told me she used to talk to her dead grandfather while she tended roses.

Jamie B: What sort of things would you recommend to someone who may want to test out their own skills?

Kelly: Study. Learn. Practice on your friends and relatives.

Jamie B: any tips you use for making it easier to pick up on stuff?

Kelly: To open up; I'd say pray. Pray with all your heart and with all you desire. You honestly have to want and be ready to accept gifts like this. You have to really have a good idea of what you are asking, so its not just for the weak of heart or easily deterred, you have to pray, learn, keep praying and keep learning. The most important thing I might say is not in how to open up, but to allow the gifts to be. Accept and don't second guess. Be willing in other words to take what you are given and truly believe and understand that they are not only from God, but from your inner self that knows all and has been throughout the universe for you.

Jamie B: Can you describe how you get your information?

Kelly: Well I think I can. I get an impression of an answer to a question. Sometimes I see and answer to a question. Let's say I am subconsciously asking, what can you tell me about this person? Then I might close my eyes and see this person (usually I'm looking at a photo) in dress Navy whites. I know the person was in the Navy. Sometimes I feel things, like I might feel a pain in my head. I might even rub my head and say something hurts here. Was this person injured here or have some brain trouble? If we pinpoint the trouble, the pain disappears from me. I might smell things. Like with your grandmother I always smelled apples, like baking apples. Yummy. Sometimes that tells a person that I am connecting with their loved ones. But many times its more like the information is impressed upon me, shown to me. I sort of just know the answers I'm seeking. It's like the answers come from somewhere inside me and suddenly I am thinking them in my head. Once I get some answers and some validation from the person I am reading for, then I can start visualizing, smelling, feeling. So first a thought is impressed upon me, which I speak aloud to the person I'm reading to (or type). Then upon some validation from the client, I can begin to see things behind my closed eyes, like having a dream basically, only I'm awake.

Jamie B: alright... let's wrap this up with a psychic question. lol. Tell me something you see in my future.

Kelly: The first thing I see is a moving van when I think about you and envision your photo. (Our dog) in the driver's seat. I see a river city, like this city that is built on a river bank. Gosh kiddo I see the Golden Gate Bridge or at least one like it. You are smiling, you are content and happy with Ed beside you.

Jamie B: Thanks for taking the time to chat with me, Kelly. This has been very interesting.