Just Along for the Ride - A Poem

I don't know why, but I don't want anyone to know,
Ally or enemy, friend or foe?
I write but few people know what I am capable of,
I keep to myself and I seek true love.
I want the feeling of someone next to me,
Not just a fling and then to flee.
Thinking of many people I can choose from,
I want only one, but not to make a choice that's dumb.
I want someone who truly loves me too,
There has to be a person with a love this true.
Maybe nobody was made for me, myself or I,
Abandoned and alone am I destined to fly?
No one knows for sure in this life,
Maybe my next will have less strife.
Could I get there faster my own way,
Kill, be killed, or join the KKK?
Life may not be worth the ride,
But there is something to say for pride.
I am not a trusting person now,
I made bad friends and don't know how.
They ruined my life but they will soon know,
When they need me I will now be their foe.