Letter from a Serial Rapist: Part 3 of 3

I can see my own death and I have a choice to let those demons kill me or I can forgive them and fight for my life and try to save my being. The choice I face will be a hard one but I think in my heart I know which one I will choose. FORGIVENESS!!

They can cut me, stab me, bash me and in the end kill me, but there is one thing they can't touch which is my soul. I want so much to be in God's loving arms. I know he loves me because no-body on Earth will love me, like a father loves his son. I believe that with all of my heart and I am not letting go of that, because that's all I have at this time in life.

I meet the Lord God in my heart and nobody can take that away from me, and the day that I do die my only wish is to see the man who died for a man like me - MMMMMM VVVVVV who will always love me no matter what I have done in the time I spent on this Earth.

My lawyer said that you may never read this letter. I wanted to tell you how I feel with my crime. I wanted to die but instead I am going to walk this Earth with this shame that I have brought down on myself.

My lawyer is a good man and I think he has done the best job he could possibly do with the guilty plea I made. All I am seeking is a fair sentence that makes the community happy and the news (paper) happy.

I am an Aboriginal man and for 200 years, we, the Aboriginal people, have never been given the fair go. My point being that I am an ABORIGINAL and I am proud of my spirit and my land yet I live in a white man's world. I hope you will read this.

My lawyer said it would not do me any good because my sentence has been dealt with six or seven months ago - but I felt I had to say all of this from my heart.

I have a lady who is willing to wait for me, and I can only hope that she does. I can never know what the next day is going to be like. ONLY HOPE!!

I love my children and I let them down badly and one day I will ask them to forgive me for leaving them alone in the world, as it's a bad place and a hard one place too, and they are now starting the hardest time of their lives - their teenage years, this being the time that makes or breaks a person. And I dream that they are going to be there when I get out and that they have made it.

I am sorry for the crimes I have committed. I hope that you will, with great wisdom, give me a sentence that will make everyone happy except me.

I hope that you can see that I want to live one more time with a woman whom will wait and I hope to enjoy my grandchildren one day. This is my dream and that's all I have to hold on to - to reunite with my children and my wife.

I can't possibly ask those women to forgive me now, it's not fair on them. Maybe in time in their hearts they will, but please let them know I had no right to enter their world in that way - none whatsoever, and in time I hope that they can please forgive me. Only time will heal wounds and then maybe they can.

Dear Sir I give you this letter because I can't and will not try to contact any of these women but if you see fit to let them read this letter tell them that I am sorry I touched their worlds, and I hope they will one day forgive me. I am not a monster just a man hurting who let that pain out onto their poor souls for which I am truly sorry....

From Prisoner

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Prison Number 00000000