Life on Repeat

Every day I wake up from lying awake
Preparing that smile that I have to fake
What you've done screams in my ears
It's another reminder of all these years
I've pondered the point of staying alive
Every new measure is a reason not to survive
But I dry my tears and hide my wounds
Hoping someone hits the stop button soon

And it's the same pain I felt before
Only this time it hurts so much more
The record doesn't miss a note
As I struggle to stay afloat
You always say it's just a phase
But I still hear the same damn song that always plays
The knives in my back cause the scars on my wrist
My new motto on life is cease and desist
And it's the same exact tune with a modified beat
Shattering me again, it's my life on repeat

Each moment feels like déjà vu
The verses are all familiar too
You watch as my heart hits the floor
Do I even matter anymore?
My anger burns at volumes too loud to understand
Red is all I can see while hanging by a strand
Because of you disaster plagues my soul
But the needle's constant scratching is my own rock n roll

And it's the same pain I felt before
Only this time it hurts so much more
The record doesn't miss a note
As I struggle to stay afloat
You always say it's just a phase
But I still hear the same damn song that always plays
The knives in my back cause the scars on my wrist
My new motto on life is cease and desist
And it's the same exact tune with a modified beat
Shattering me again, it's my life on repeat