Living in the Now for the Future

I have started examining my life and hoping that I am living in the here and now. Not allowing the mistakes of my past, or worst yet, the mistakes of others, to hinder my progress. I have declared never to allow that to happen again. I endeavor to live in the now and strive for a better future. And I can't possibly do that if I have to constantly stop to remove shackles of poor judgments or misguided trust in acquaintances. I am currently struggling with a personal issue that could quite easily turn into a painful memory. But, in my desire to build a better future for myself, I refuse to allow this pimple to become a gapping wound. I will put it in its proper prospective; it will not dictate how I move forward.

So what is the best way to get the most out of the now? Mainly, I set goals for my financial, emotional and physical life. My financial life is rather simple, I calculate what I need to survive, make a plan and go for it. My physical life, well, basically, for me, is trying to eat healthy and keeping my environment safe and comfortable for living. Now, the emotional is a little more complicated. Cause I am a complex personality. I just want to be loved. I want the people around me to love me and want the best for me, because I want the best for others. I may be complex, but, I am also quite simple in my expectations. That personal issue that I mentioned earlier. Let's just say I am in the process of ensuring my emotional health. Sometimes when our associations aren't healthy, this can throw everything off balance. Maybe they don't fit into our overall plan, or we don't fit into theirs. The problem is sometimes we don't take time to analyze this and end up staying in a relationship long after it has lost it's life.

In essence, I am being selfish. I am putting myself above others and their desires, because my happiness is all that matters. Well, not really, but, this is what the judgmental mind would say without knowing the facts. I have learned that I am of no benefit to anyone if I am not healthy in all areas of my life. It is easy to get caught up in trying to make others happy to a point that there is no happiness left for ourselves. Living a now life, is the only way that I can ensure a happy and prosperous future.