Love?

I have been dating a 28 year old man for a year and a half. This is my first relationship, yes, there are eight and a half years between us, but he is as close to the man of my dream as it gets. He is a beautiful being, skinny, with brown eyes, and thick eyebrows, which are so soft when he brushes over my face with them. He has sleek cheekbones, and shaves his head, and has a little soul patch under his lower lip. His lips are so gentle when he kisses me, and full of passion, not full of crudeness and racing to get to the bed. We will sit for hours, just on the couch, with our arms wrapped around us, and his head on my chest. He is always considerate, whether it's if I am cold in the car, or can't reach my other sock that is on the floor. He is smart, and motivated and funny.

But then there of course are the qualities that make him the no one is perfect, guy. He eats noisily, and is obsessive compulsive. He is ALWAYS at least 10 minutes late when we hang out, and has a hard time getting up on time.

But I have gotten to the point, where some of his quarks, make him, him. If he didn't fully untie his shoes and put them in the exact same stop every time he got home, well, it just wouldn't be him. I love him.

What am I suppose to feel during this time of love? Because this is my first experience loving, it's hard to tell sometimes, whether I should be thinking the thoughts I do, or whether I am getting too attached, knowing that we probably wont get married, but then again, only time can tell. Sometimes I feel like venting to a friend about him, but there is nothing to vent about, or it's always the same thing, that later on, I realize, I am okay with. I don't even know what to write about here. I just wish I could spend more time with him, we live two totally separate lives, 40 minutes away from each other, and always have to designate time to hangout, and that time, literally flies. He's the first person with whom six hours feels like half, and with whom, I always feel like we have our own world, and don't care about anyone else's.

Time with him is indescribable, and amazing.