Love at First Sight

My heart has now experienced "Love at First Sight" ! As I gaze at the picture of my first grandchild, still in the womb, I ask myself how it is possible to already love this little wonder so much! This unborn child, of my child, already fills up all the small empty recesses of my life. I have never held "It" or smelled it's sweetness, yet it already claims that most precious space in my heart.

Second Chances

God is so amazing. He gives us hope and happiness in these little bundles of joy. These "second chances" allow us to re-live the joy and miracle of birth without experiencing the physical pain! When our grown children may no longer need us, God, in His infinite mercy, provides us with the next generation of our legacy, our grandchildren.

What glorious emotions are brimming on the surface of my soul, waiting to spill over like tears on my pillow shed during a fitful night's dream. During this time of joy, I must remind myself that this is the birth of my child's first child and, therefore, I must wait patiently in the background.

Even before this child arrives, my emotions are running the gamut! I am filled with great joy and excitement, yet, I am paralyzed with fear for my son as he will struggle to raise this child in such an ungodly world. And yes, my heart is saddened with disappointment because modern medicine will allow us the miracle of knowing the sex of the child before it is born, yet my children choose to wait for the surprise of the moment. This is selfishness on my part, wanting to call this little one by it's name in my mind and heart during these long months of wait.

Life and Time will come Full Circle

If only my children could comprehend now that these are the Glory Days of their lives. They are so few, these busy days of bringing life into this world; fleeting moments that will fade with time as their lives become hectic with the every-day business called Life. The innocent years of a new family are swallowed up with the passage of time and these much anticipated moments will fade until they are but a twinge of regret stored in the back recesses of the mind's eye.

Years from now, with the grace of God, my child will get that most joyous phone call from his child and Life and Time will have come full circle. Then, and only then, will the memory of those forgotten days of happiness whell up to the surface and spill over into his consciousness. The joyous memories of his Glory Days will flood his heart as God grants my son pardon and gives him a second chance, too. It is then, with regrets of time lost, he will finally understand his mother's feelings and what this special time really means to a parent.

We all think about what our lives would have been like had we known then what we know now. Yes, these little blessings called Grandchildren, really are life's second chances at happiness; what glorious rewards they are for growing old. They are God's big beautiful ribbon on the Package of Life, binding up the worn and frazzled loose ends of our lives and making the transition into our latter days bearable.

I am forever grateful, Lord, for second chances and last Dances of the Heart before my music ends...