Meli

Making all the wrong choices

Getting myself in way over my head

Then I was stuck in a situation

Nothing but my own will could save me from

The depths of desolation and violence

I was to endure, you call the cops

He vows to shoot you, your dog

And every cop he could take out

Before he'd commit suicide

Your family, he'd do the same

There's a part of you that doesn't believe

But then he holds you up with a rifle

Your hunting dog no longer

She see's a gun she's long gone now

What do you do

Then he tries to rape you

After he'd been beating you like a man

For over a year

Then Monday comes, back to work

He says you'll go to the bank

And try to take a loan out

I protest then fall silent

Knowing that I'm not taking a loan out

I'm not going to get sexually assaulted again

I'm not getting chairs thrown at me anymore

Or been hit in the spots no one sees

No more yelps from my pup as she gets it too

I packed up my dog and all that could fit in my car

Chugged to my mom's house because he took all my money

Barely made it there

Barely made it too here from that day that I went home

Now I sit on my bed in my room contented and happy to be alive

My dogs surround me, including my savior

Who came through the depths of torment into the light of love

Without pain or control

Looking at my walls, the pictures all smiles

Happiness staring me in the face everyday

And Jesus looking over us

I feel aged, old like I walked a thousand miles through a war

But I feel, broken, beaten down

In some way I can't really describe