Missing My Child

I can still remember the cramps
That signaled your readiness to be born
I remember waking up
With pains so sharp
That I felt I was sure to die
Somehow I managed to ambulate
Towards the bathroom
When I finally got there
I collapsed almost immediately
The pain becoming even stronger
It was all I could do to breathe
As I felt myself widen
I knew that the moment had come
Clenching my fists as hard as I could
And gritting my teeth
I felt a wave of relief
As you made your entrance into the world
However, it was a sad one
When I didn't hear you crying
I knew this moment was to be expected
But it hurt me more than anyone will ever know
And I shall always carry this sadness
Until the day I die