Momentum 1-65

How can one blame someone else for something

when that thing is just a point of another point

the larger factor is the nailing down of things

when nothing can be

so one labels it an emotion when in fact it is the other half of a whole

until one realizes its all a division & doesn't truthfull exist outside our own creation

of which we have been systematically programmed to maintain momentum 1 karma

the abyssal current of living in without admitting insanity

like so many things it is only a word given power

man in reality structures the havocs

the chaos

the good & bad in life

it has nothing to do with cause & effect

when taken in consideration the systems developed including laws nor the entire mind state of man momentum 2 how much of my life is not a routine

how much have i really not conformed to

all the way down to my inner thought

why i look even breath

where is there alone

as in a lone of doing that which has not been grasped at all

for every singular approach

there is a forethought of what another has done or an image to live up to that i have seen or assumed
momentum 3 can you look at me and tell me who i am

don't be fooled by that shadow of multiple illusions

it feeds in whenever a distinct individual bears into its presence

behind the closed walls of mind is a lost self running deeper into crushes & crumbles

seeking to know itself & cling to pity

but unwilling to course the fields of that which doesn't elude momentum 4 what is fear

not what is it made out to be

nor the small instants that disappear in a flash

but the buried deep in the psyche

irrational one

that probably is the gapping tunnel all of it springs from in the first place

in its manner

it is overwhelming & all consuming

its the thought of death

not the posited 'i ain't scared to die' wording to establish a break away or a means of challenge

but the actual acceptance of death as the complete utter & altogether

be all in all

end

no after life

no coming back

no belief to come into play of change

just oblivion

nothingness

something we all try to look away from for one reason or another

thats fear momentum 5 i have been paying close observation in the sight of my own arrogance & anger

and have come to notice it is quite vast & consuming

coupled with self-centered activity

it is quite nerving

i am all unto myself pretty unbalanced usually

i have taken to overlooking this or adjusting this or conceiving of a means

an attempt to do away with this

but never just accepting it

does it matter either way

it should

since either way it is me

so why suppress it

the biggest question should be what the hell is it anyways

what am i momentum 6 our entire lives might as well be scripted when thought too long about

the very ideas are so generic

our basis of life is of what we have seen

so everything tips & taps

in love hate & so on etc.

a fabrication of movies & plays

with no sight of the real thing besides endless documentations of people right before them in what ever format

all based on something from novels the bible to books

unable to let the steer clear & notice

its just a burnt out copy

no one has done it before

too entangled with follow the leader who is always in sight

it should come off as helpless or hopeless

paralyzed

shake off & just be

without advice or another to utter what they can't

when we are all just as lost as each other momentum 7 give me a real reason as to why i am so dying to live

honestly

how could i be afraid of death

look at my life set out before me

so much self-centered

self-concerned

self-pity

consuming one another in a bland substance filled life

hell i am actually writing this about myself

how overly now in days

when clearly they stand for themselves & one must understand

at least if one stands for a cause/idea that can be shattered

but understand the obvious point even when that happens

all that individual does is run deeper into themselves

so its a lose-lose situation in the first place momentum 8 how indulging this is

i have no children

no girl

no real life

any forms of those things

i have gained I've run so so far away

obsessing over so much substance and always coming to a conclusion & stuck in myself

the happiest moments in my existence are plagued by negativity & overlooking the obvious of surrounding

so in truth

it wasn't what it seemed neither am i momentum 9 why do I have to solve this problem

any conflict is minute-less to loss

at the frame of state of mind

that sight will not allow an answer

as if an answer were needed

clearly "i" am trivail

altogether a pawn of all too many things

something that isn't existing

a fucking illusion that cannot come to grip with what it is just as anyone else momentum 10 so with all that in check

why is there fear

fear of death

of ultimate ending

of the apocalypse

when this thing does not care for no other nor itself

truthfully & sees no ounce of reasoning

for its being

so why is there still this lingering

which has no name

which imposes itself

holds on to a belief of needing to exist & fears its own destruction momentum 11 its a sad sorrowful life when one realises

if they were killed and it appeared as if they did it to themself

all the ones they love & care for

would believe they commited suicide momentum 12 its quicker to shut people out than to deal with them

but does that make life any easier

imagine the ensemble of finding out none of us are actually related

would we all admittedly just up and leave one another

because all of the endless harsh treatment or would there be a thinking of over momentum 13 so where is there difference

in child bearing or periods

pms

take a pick & witness

the motive of envy on part something deprived or bitter

from ancient hatered toward the direction of concepts or fully realised things

of which one is wholly apart of but cannot bear to understand

in any event is the stone of time

a bit of something so distant in the past

it drags out because it was never ever ever resolved

whether it be a male creature

jealous

envious of a unborn child & the place it will have with what is "his"

the failure was in one never being able to admit this to one's self

let alone fully openly to any other or just as prehistoric in essence

the cruel bitterness of reaction to women's ability to child bearing with the same episodic reasonings behind it as that before in the other

anger & just as ancient

never ever resolved

a ever bearing unending conflict for all here afters momentum 14 when i have a thought instantly i am devoured by an image

i am a product of this whole world

not only of its streets or hasn't one realised

as is a product of the mind

to not accept is to not see the fact

but even to accept doesn't mean to fully realise

so as always we are at a lost for words

drawn to conclusions because points can't get across

when in the end that is only a mental truth

so how is it to be grasped

like all things without posing a question momentum 15 we seek answers from all corners

no matter who one is

the highest of most high & every word that one says is just a repeat

a forethought

something it let slip that it heard from its inner workings

to ask another for advice

when all the while it is just a means of self satisfaction

of hearing another repeat what one was thinking

to hear it given truth or false

a sense of if another grasp than one is not alone

but wholly it is just a stage of ones' own regard for oneself momentum 16 the mystery is foolish

that somewhere there is someone or on sight with thoughs you don't know

there is this ness about them

this gravity

like they are talking about something or doing things that no else does anywhere on Earth

they are completely unique

one of a kind so so different

so random

the hoax is the human mind to hold into that

fall in that & always be in

expanding that

like there is a woman or man out there for them

that there has to be or there is a group & they don't discuss what we do

they are magical

whatever can be used to differinate & this is all false

in the end

this is an illusion of our own mind & when it expands

it becomes as though this woman's sexual organ is this or that because i have not had it

all things form toward this & clash among itself

when in concern

but we do it all the time

hold that mystery like this person doesn't eat like "we" do doesn't do what we do cannot & it just grows from there & the ability to break from that calls in a shock

that is rather a massive upheavel of what one has programmed themself to uphold & it is not easy to just balance back to what wasor as a worth of saying

just what is what was

why when it is seen for false would one want to maintain in it

while struggling o see out of it

can you see the foolishness in that

all of it
momentum 17 there is always a all at once

as in when things occur

the grasp that one can't break the concept

that it is only happening to them or that special someone can't see pass individualism

to note this is everywhere

its not just me or him or her

it is us all

no one is unscathed momentum 18 it comes without saying

we live in a world of the few

as in everyone wants to/has to be something

so everyone all at once is trying to reach that all the time

at the same time a set is trying to be the best of that & that over powering dominates the rest

steps over the rest & the anixous look up to that

strive crave & decree

to be them or hide behind denial or straight forward

reach toward that according the end result

however followed still comes to the same

so the majority is second hand & even those on top are just second hand to something else

to an ideal

while all at once

they are all suffering without accepting for them & from the somethings & not able to fully admit this momentum 19 it is one thing in a life lived no matter how long to use words with wise choice

but none

absolutely none of that can add up to anything what so ever

if i nor you or whom ever who does this does not live by those words

no not live by them

but go into that & see what is it

altogether

what is true of those words denying them for whatever reason is false

whatever excuse is false

there is no reason to verbally express something if one isn't willing to go into it

see it for what it is Jan 22, 2011 momentum 20 what is with the fear of dying

the all together ness of that fear

the over-whelming as though that is fear

the driving whatever it is to live

drives so deep

it rides one as though even with mention of death there is still a part that rushes through & focuses on an after life that runs on "forever"

while another part rushes to reincarnation

the wonder is if any ounce of that ness

if that drive for living is really by one or is it just the product of our identity or self-absorbed all-consuming completely centered self into itself momentum 21 in this life i have never wanted to live forever hell or even again

but even still the idea of death

the total complete end of "me"

there has always been a fear

no

fear there beyond denial

but it has all been a wonder as to whether which seems separate in a way isn't just a no

the fear of the destruction

the complete & utter destruction of me momentum 22 life gets so boring

so insufferable

one comes to the conclusion there has to be more to it

this can't be it

one also gets the assumption that someone somewhere is doing this thing

these things that they can't do and like a drug they look for & get attached to any number of things they see while at the same time noticing no difference but it keeps them occupied the illusions of the framework momentum 23 there tends to be an obsession overly matter within us

to want

to know

what came before

to escape into past times

or just prefer that

or act

or maintain

there are hidden areas of history of which one is not aware of

this is altogether backwards when but just the simplest observation of oneself around others

while alone & toward outside things

as well as inside things

all the actions one displays wholly is a summary of conditioning as in the relay is still in itself an accumulation of all our traditions

customs

ethics & so on etc.

from each individual going as far back to before recorded history

especially when one takes the obvious factor that each individual being run by thought in itself is just from moment to moment

individual to individual

just modifying itself

with everything just one massive ovr exhausted repetitious redundant repeat
of what came before

as though moving in amensia

but at least if it were then something would be new momentum 24 people come down to anything beside the fact and seem to accept anything

the point

the lie

death in place of fact & what it is

which is

denial is the only way around this & life seems to have a massive amount of it momentum 25 am i to be a story from a script

a test that is irrelevant

that in its same is the position of giving purpose when there really is none momentum 26 all these things one comes across as thoughts

as their motives

their reasoning

their literal actions

all of it

every single bit is an ensemble of mountains of entangled

cultural

economical

ethical

social

traditional

altogether psyhcological hand-me-down information/conditioning

that is buried so deep

because that is our understanding

our grasp/grip on "reality"

anything we could want or focus on knowing from the past is wholly expressed by us through us & from us

we are it & it is us

it takes more than thinking to come down to this

but its simple all the same momentum 27 my grasp on me is so tight

so domineering

never-ending

that within a sentence i can refer to my me and i as though they are not one in the same momentum 28 when speaking of one loosing grip on reality

just what is "reality"

it seems & tends to be what we make it

so how is it that it is lost

so reality as is is a concept

an idea momentum 29 we live a life where we put importance in people & knowing one another

and hold into the notion that whom ever we've known or met

we will meet them a number of times in life

at least twice or three times in some unusal cases honestly

this is false in a sense

because one's focus is only on those beneficial or of some self-importance to us

as well as most times it adds up technically to more this

one is at the same time over looking the obvious factor of death & that all around us are people who come & go & come again over & over

yet we overlook them because we don't "know" them

for all this there is synchronicity

which states the idea/concept of meaning in meeting certain individuals whom one comes across again in there life time

all in all

meaningness in itself is false

in the act of understanding that that is in whatever one puts benefit

value

understanding ness

purpose or anything into becomes that momentum 30 so if there is a problem & its being over looked & disregarded

how is light to be brang to it

or even so if not

if it does exist

it is being disregarded & things are getting worse beyond measure

there is no going back but that cannot be accepted by the majority because everything is too focused on bits

pieces of what comes from the whole

as well as those whom know of the problem

lost in it as well

choosing rather than to face it

accepting this as is

this going in a circle is beyond ancient

our literal conditions far worse yet people by the masses are being fed only half the story

like being given keys with no direction as to where they go

so one becomes obsessed with their conditionings and its problems

while is traced or noted for it itself

so life is a joke

existence an even paler comparsion

the falseness of it & resolve are dead in the pigments of compare

labels

names

man

woman

child

thoughts & ideas
momentum 31 here in this world love is an enemy

a chemical imbalance

a word

spoiled

disfigured

wasted

something people kill another "for"

can't one realize the falseness in that

the very understanding of loving another we grasp is out of control harmones

obsessing over sex and thinking beyond understanding about another

in itself thought should have no place in that matter

which is why it acts so errorenously during that period

more similar to insanity

which doesn't make that love

just a shadow of it

in which all self-interest is absorbed into an image of something or someone

it cannot contain itself so of course it will break itself

plus all this will be in conflict with itself from the beginning & all through out

so love is just a word for us

entirely

the only manner by way it could exist is if it is without the idea/concept of it

so without thinking momentum 32 do i need to calm down

am i bad

evil

good

perfect

this game has played forever by every and anyone

look at the label as an idea with its opposite a reflection of it

neither really exists other than as a description with one coming forth after the other to explain it and be a shadow

what is contained is not contained

it cannot be and they are all the same thing momentum 33 how will i be perceived once this is realized

maybe it shouldn't be a question

everything written in this statement implies time

that is a failure

a misconception

a concept all its own

along with the idea of what others idea of "me" will be in the first place momentum 34 the idea

not only that there has to be an idea

but some frame of thought in itself that thought must carry on

it has its own literal existence

it is the whole entire of existence

from the beginning of human memory to its very end

could that be understood in the sense that all of that vastness was in actuality

one in the same

i

me

my

you

him

her

are all just a piece of that

how much does it take to realize this is not a idea/concept

but actual fact momentum 35 all fear of death is its fear of its own destruction

no matter how it can be looked at

success

reward

becoming

itself is all a part of its grip & it itself & to destory it

to condemn it

to do anything toward it in that sense or even in what the realm of that can conceive

is what

just something it itself layed in accord

so approach is lost

form/technique

as well

lead back to the same circle momentum 36 why must i look to another & be taught by another & only see from another

as in

everything i see in form

how to be and what to be

where does it end

why can it not end

is one disabled or stagnate

without it is this all just an idea

even still

why doesn't one just go into it momentum 37 it is understandable i am angry

cynical and unbalanced

believing myself to posses a sense of purpose and that it is guaranteed

like so many

my inner self-pity contained in its vast sense of self-importance believes it is God

there need not be an ending entirely to me

of this i hold all the fear imaginable & that is as far reaching as the universe can go momentum 38 the expression of subjective reality

the quality of reality

itself being as it is individually interpreted

so what is depends on whom sees it & all the things that make up that one taking it all in & how they choose to go about manufacturing that grasp momentum 39 its a wonder if one can see life

any life

no matter how short or how long or so called boring or mundane

as greater than any epic

more passionate

more expressive in its own

than all the things they try to grasp it

contain it

supplement it for momentum 40 its strange to grasp that one has played follow the leader for their entire existence

to actually see entirely that they have just depended on everyone & thingwith such full "attention" for the answers to every notion that they & that are a joke truthfully do not exist

that all their whatevers do not matter

that every aspect of existence is meaningless and once this is grasped

saw or seen

one runs or hides or waits or finds

does something to build up a wall & dig into this & stay

do whatever it takes to not come into that potent

self-pity whatever the word over the value for lack of recollection for response

when seeing true loneiness

truth

through this concrete ensemble

through all these words

condemnations

through the self

its so so easier to get away from that momentum 41 in life

we as human beings try to create purpose and try to lose ourselves in that base

our lives in that develop it as talents

ever our we to realize that failsafe in itself is a failure

it is limited as are we & that haunts us all in the same as a urgency to grasp more

for what else have we to cling to momentum 42 so what differeniates you from another

excuse all the things one holds as to reason with from thought

because even then nothing you have thought has not been thought by everyone among surrounding & outside one's grasp

we have all questioned everything

at one time or another

even if only for a second

we are all bond by customs traditions & so on

from before recorded history that conditions

so what really makes one unique

is it that special feeling

that ness

that this is one's mind body

their soul

no one else's

their possessions

their art

talent

technique

in any & all those cases

that which one holds as dear can be stripped down to its general sense & noted from then as something that one alone does not only have

is that enough

is it the anger

frustration

sadness

aloneness

that is yours

is it against another

to look clearly and see they are not the only ones

hell

not the only in any sense

so when one comes down from that and using any method possible to cling to something

some idea

some format

ritual

object

then can they notice the obvious

such as meaning and significance

what are they

do they exist

if all the things that gave one identity

that invented them

made them "whole"

is false

then maybe meaning & significance do not exist

they are just fabrics of thought that are based in things to the self

whether beneficial or not

if these words are based on true things then we have never grasped nor seen them & they are completely outside the i & any notion of self-importance

they can not be put into form & they are beyond all reasoning

imaginable

universal to everything

no high or low

this nor that momentum 43 if one can't let it all cloud their judgement

why must they have one

isn't age & its grouping

young

old

a child

adult

elder

is it not a state of mind

the milk of what could be is so over bearing

so much like a drug

it carries so much in a world where so many things are conflicting against another & no one willing to truthfully do anything about it

it is the escape that has become everything momentum 44 is that to be the sum total

every drop of entirety that can and shall ever be

just a redundant structure

permanently redoing its cycle

its own cycle with no creation

nothing new in a sense

thought makes its opposite out to be uniminds and things with no identity

when in truth it cannot in any shape or form grasp outside itself & is its own opposite

to be a unimind would still be a mind and have all its functions

producing the framework of thought

all the denial of this existence

this never ending mental eternity of path with its own self-destruction is what makes it in & of itself ever lasting

the entire act of not looking at it

never approaching it

nor trying to understand it

carries it on momentum 45 is it easier to believe

that one day

someday

a great leader will emerge from the depths

all you have to do is wait and they will come to free us from ourselves

show us out of our problems

save us from ourselves

instead of us facing anything ourself momentum 46 so if all one's mission

dream

goal

purpose in life is called into question

i mean literally

all that one believes in

is them and all they stand for has been totally aburtly destoryed

defaced of shown for its falseness

what then

where does one go from there

why is the immediate always to seek help

that is not there or the ultimate escape in suicide momentum 47 are there places of separation

why everyone doesn't take note or does it take time or maybe its just you

as the individual who chooses to make that understanding a fact

to separate oneself from others

its obvious without understanding if one is doing this everyone is in their own way
momentum 48 how is it that we are suppose to act

is there a set formula

is it a fact that because one assumes that there is a proper way

one is in conflict with themself from the start trying to tie the self to said supposed standard

one cannot live a teaching

either they are it or they are not

or is that a oxymoron

because it is all only in relation to someone relying that this is so momentm 49 its the thought

all-together belief

deep in

that one must record

that there is greatness still to be found

so many fragments at once that all refer to one's legacy

is generally why i write

no this statement shouldn't be looked on as something

it isn't after all

i still am me

the notions that i write about as facts are pointed to not because i am them but because they are fact

falseness and other things can deny and block this

but no matter what

a fact is what is momentum 50 there always seems to be an appetite for more

its never enough for just a little bit

even when it seems it is

we always seem to want more out of life with the presence of any and everything

even the most mundane of things to be lustful

desirable momentum 51 to really grasp a subjective take on things

is similar in form to one locked in their own mind

in a dream

with everything within it the subject of their take on things

their opinions

their feelings

as though the universe were in fact catering to their single being only

reality itself is just a reflection of their self

can one grasp the idiocy of all that

really momentum 52 so man creates God

then develops the belief God created him

is there suppose to be a flag somewhere in that for one to notice the obvious contradiction in that

is it enough that it is put before to not think otherwise

to dare not note any of this or face being struck down by lightning or damned for all eternity

just for a thought

is one to buy into that

if one cannot question one thing

then one cannot nor might as well not question anything

what so ever momentum 53 so where or what is my God

is it a He or She

is it the only truth

the only answer to all my questions

my savior

my myth

my legend

my love

all goodness

the only thing that is

or is it my government

my mother

or father

or their ancestors

or is it more to the point just my mind with all its contradictions

inventions of products

to deduce and relate to the universe around me

to grasp and touch everything

known and unknown

if this does not leave a question

then one isn't heeding the mark
momentum 54 i try to be aware

moment to moment

every moment

the fallacy of any of this lies in the obvious

with the absurdity of the "ego" building and the blank spots and noting what others are doing

as though one is separate from it

above it

different

when all in all

one is just conviently doing as all around in themself do as in their own momentum 55 one can go on and on about for days in the realm of belief and stating of fortune

and how to achieve

and why others are where they are

and how it is to and why it is to hold God high and above and be thankful

while "observing" one's and others predicament momentum 56 i feel almost harassed by time

and see it as no reason why anyone shouldn't also feel this way

though it might be looked on as a laughable

take for an instance the factor of technology as a mass product of our intellect

given form in all its various ways

it has expanded itself & touched our lives

now notice the human being

who though inventor of it

has not in his own farthered himself in near the ways of his inventions

look at the psychological tapestry of our lives as they are as a recurring cycle that increases as they multiply and has been doing for as far back as time is able to be looked down through

note it isn't times fault and the damage is done momentum 57 it is said do not question God

do not question everything or one will be left undone and condemned

the definition of being condemned can be label of the actual life we lead

if the facts are drawn out and how can questioning everything be any different than the factors which landed one in that particular predicament in the first place and one is supposed to over look

look to build stone walls that do not exist to escape from questioning or avoid doubt and think of it all as a shameful word with the barebone of things

a place of unrelation to anyone

so in saying no one wants to be there because it is alone yet one is alone even when surrounded by all

they "know" if what we seek isn't ever to be before hand with the notion that there even has to be anything seeked

then why haven't we questioned just to question momentum 58 in my youth i looked at it like it was going to be a continous neverending struggle or battle

if one would

between all the wrongs in the universe and them being resolved and righted

this i had felt in many forms even through to my nows

in all our surroundings the things of society

the barebones that point the direction things are to go like religions

philosophies

laws

justice

while at the same time in entertainment and many a themes of life are subliminal in this as they are set by/invented by life/people

they are concepts that are unrealistic

they maybe logically sound

but they mount and envolpe us into a container

which even when broken just because it was "created" in the first place

we are ever encroached within it

locked

these holes are "older" than any living individual and touch any and all

like most conditions

while we are still seeds within the belly momentum 59 by the way

what is love

i can't say i know what it is

nor can i describe it

i mean i can

but i know that isn't trully it

nor can i say it is a person

nor that of a person

though in life i have many times over momentum 60 do not look to it as if i am talking down about God

nor as if i were a God fearing man

it just seems like quite a misunderstanding between if there is this entity that created everything it can be grasped by human nature put into words

mapped out

surrounded by angels or realized with other sibling gods and goddesses in some melodramatic soap opera

devoid of substance or something that we could or might relate

as in take Christ here

if thought about it

it is as if at some point some thought/said He is not relateable to us so we will wove Him into a man and make this God feel know "our" pain

this idea may seem far-fetched but take into account in "modern" society the same is done all the time throughout literture with characters as far reaching as Kal-el/Superman to the Devil/Lucifer in comic books

and as stubborn as society is to face facts

no one now is truthfully out thinking someone who existed in that and those day in ages thousands of years ago

especially when an individual takes into account the theorist throughout the world believe and have gathered numerous information to prove God is an alien

who created us in some insidious lab experiment

with anything that defines logic just for once think about it

logically without allowing one's self to be pushed by psychological pressures

which will arise

but since it is us and we are it

why is it so hard

is it just hard to accept pass what is "thought"

so if we come pass that

how can we arrive logically to a point that anything we say would damn us

why would there be a hell or even heaven

is it because there must be a punishment and reward

a cost of living

life must be built on something

is that all this psychological drama adds up to

that no matter how outside we place things to the individual

it is still everyone living the life

as in all in the same

over and over again

an entire disassoication of "mine"

when in truth with us feeling and going through all the same things even if in denial does it not add up still to the same as mankind as a whole with no indivdualism besides what we are thought to believe

so if one can get here

not deny or reject what they "know"

but see that body of work for what it is

for it is still us

we are not separate from it

though it is a concept

which is a thought

which is us

so if we can come that far

see that

then keep there not search for something to explain all this when it explains itself as do we

it doesn't have to be complicated neither do we

and if the notion is obvious

that we are it then the separation that we glorify and accept is not there

we are one in the same

if put into words as perspective and seen in all things that are conceived and make up "our reality" as a whole

would one not be able to see reality momentum 61 there maybe only one fact

and all things aside

are so far from the point that there is no point

and it is all nonexistent

besides how we "shape" it into "our reality"

which is not fact either momentum 62 one life to lead

one life to live it in

with an understanding that it is only once

but if i or anyone does actually have this as a ground and live in it

then why is it so difficult to get pass all the unnecessary fabrics that run us all from another into isolation

why can i meet someone or live with someone

have an arguement go through a falling out etc. and thats it

done and we part ways

even if friendship is false

relationship exists

it is there either way

but day in day out it is broken clear and asunder

and people leave one another and never see to another again

even more false and idiotic is for individuals who part as if that is for the better

any bit of together has more in it than any form of falseness

any grudge

any so called reasoning which is nonsense when clarity is observed to honestly see that this is life and one only has once to live it in with no subject of a hereafter

what logic would there then be for this

though realistically people cannot see outside of themselves nor their contradictions to bear the full responses to see all of this while lost in beliefs that guarantee things which are of concept

so we are always side tracked by that red-herring

should it be that in not seeing out of it we resolve to wasting something that makes up our existence

but since it is seen as a dust in wind that can be replicated just as any part of this life for the aforementioned

we are as one a lost thing

breaking limbs that do not grow back

as we carry on in our so called "hardening"

blinded and reduced

unable to grasp

what is the use momentum 63 through the wondering of what it is one is supposed to accomplish in existence

why must one

it seems very alluring to have something to occupy

apply one self

escape to

but is it those things

what are these things

why must we have them

must we

do they define us

even if it has been such through the whole of our existence

which is a lie

and we use it as a formula of success or to show we are advance

one should beg to wonder how much of it is an individual separate sense of self in this spectacle
where it is honestly one seeking to be looking at themself in a mirror neverending momentum 64 let me turn on reality for you

just because one is intelligent does not make them have all the answers

nor does it leave everything resolved

in a world of people

of life in general

there are problems that stretch farther than comprehension

with no one willing or able to fix

but is it that simple to state such a notion without bearing in mind the complexities that surround this existence

and measuring the seriousness it takes to actually do more than think of a way out of unthinkable reaches to have compassion to show things that have no names but dig so far

in the course of putting our heads hands and whatever else together

to pull out of all things that are ever piling down on our gathered existence momentum 65 does it take enough for a child in a grown man's body to realize his surroundings

is it more for one to find it wanting or daunting to take measure and lean out and grow

don't search for honest answers

nor even truth

the illusion of things bares in the traces of sculpting ones reasoning

how diluted it must all appear when reason along with thought are grasped as plots of conditioning

a wing of existence from times past

one as all could not just shut the door on