My Angels on Earth: You Are the Reason

The water reflected a blue I had never ever seen before. I was momentary blinded the bright sun's rays which deflected off the surface of the water, blinding me for a few moments. I looked around and there was no one to be seen, only the beach and the tall trees at a distance. It was such a sight, and yet I could not seem to appreciate the beauty of it all. I was lost with my mind constantly traveling back to the past and analyzing the moments of grief, shame and pain.

Time seemed to be motionless as these thoughts and emotions continued to engulf me. I trudged back to the room, and unconsciously checked the mail as I always did. And here was this simple message- "Where are you? Call me immediately". For reasons I cannot comprehend till this day, I made the call. He was in close proximity and only wanted to talk to me. Unsure and hesitatingly I agreed. We met and the first reaction of his was a smile followed by a hug filled with much warmth. The tears were uncontrollably rolling down my eyes as I narrated the events which had brought me here. He had known some if it all along and wanted to help me tide over it and get back on my feet while extending his support to me in every way possible. He did and continues to do so much for me till this day.

There was a hope of making it through, and a strong desire to face up and accept the challenges.

It was a tough journey ahead, with a lot to be done. My thoughts and attitude had changed for the better and were more on what is to be done now. It was extremely tough and I had to make the effort to fight. All it needed was a start and the momentum would keep it going. A month later I received an unexpected call. She was very concerned and wanted to see me. I always had a great regard for her and had found myself at ease in her presence. She wanted to help not only with her comforting words but in any other ways that she could. Her insistence as she held on to my hand and her assurances that things would be alright gave me the impetus to get on and not dwell on the past. A pat on my back as she left and a smile and I smiled for the first time in many days. Her selfless actions that followed and her constant best wishes, have kept me determined and focused.

A couple of years passed by and slow but steady progress was being made in all that I needed to achieve. The only thing which mattered to me was to work and to keep myself focused on the tasks at hand. I did this constantly day in and day out. There was nothing else, nothing to look forward to, no fun, no joy and really no one to share and talk to.

Some things just happen and you meet some wonderful and special people in unexpected ways. It was a smiling face and some powerful and very meaningful expressions of life through words at first. She had an inner beauty that radiated through her caring words and sweet voice. I found myself being able to share so much with her and open up in ways I never imagined I could. Distance and physical proximity then hardly mattered. The level of comfort I felt with her along with her patient understanding, the motivation and the simplicity had a profound impact on me. Here was someone who I could share anything and everything with. Why had I kept myself in the shell? I found myself having the desire to live again. Suddenly, I wanted to be there in the future and enjoy the fruits of life. I found myself laughing and crying with equal intensity and treasure each of these moments. So strong is the motivation and influence that the journey no longer seemed tough, and all it needs is perseverance and patience. The neglected conditions which I had allowed the better of me in the past I have now started to fight out. I know I can overcome them despite the odds.

These amazing and wonderful people are my angels on earth, and have through their selfless actions and direction shown me the way, given me the courage to face the challenges and make something out this life. They have made me realise that my true value is always there within me and this is what they see in me. This is a dedication to them.They are the reason that I have got to where I am today.

I will always have the deepest regard and gratitude for them.