My Dream Echoes My Reality

I dreamt of you last night

I could yet see your goodness

your promise

still you chose to do wrong

even in my sleep

it's a losing battle

that I choose to keep fighting

still loving you

still standing on the outside looking in

because i'm not included

you only let me in

when you're bored

or lonely

until then I am like a pet

i'm sheltered and fed

and ignored unless it's convenient

for you to notice me

if you're not busy

or too tired

or thinking about something else

or someone else

I am here

but am I?