My Innocence

I'd been hurt so much as of recent,

Went to visit a familiar face,

The familiar face--my own family,

He seemed so trustworthy,

So trustworthy yet something else was there,

I was able to confide in him,

To tell him everything,

Everything I could not tell others,

Other adults wouldn't even understand,

We talked about everything,

He started touching me,

Touching me in ways that i'd never felt,

And it felt so wrong,

I was so hurt,

I thought I could trust him and he broke it into a million pieces,

He threw away my innocence in such a horrible and sick way,

I was so lost and all I wanted was to cry,

To cry out in embarrassment,

I was ashamed and my whole family,

They made me feel even more ashamed,

They were mad at me,

There was no turning back,

What is a young girl to do when she feels both love and hate,

She thinks she is the one that did something wrong but it was the grown adult,

I still hurt from him and a real loving family would not make you feel alienated for something as such.