My Life

I want to start by saying thank you for taking the time to read this. This is a story about my life and how I am where I am today. It is a reflection of many events and people who have impacted my life both for the good and the bad. A story that is true and real. I hope it leaves you touched.

I was born in 1979 in a hospital named HEB. It is in Bedford, TX. When I was born my mother and father lived in a trailer park in Marshall Creek, TX. When I was about 2 my grandfather told me this story about how I use to hide under the front steps and when my mom or dad or grandpa would be looking for me they had to get the our dog to track me down. My mother and father got a divorce a little after my third birthday. I don't remember much of my early childhood. After the divorce my father did not have much interaction with me. I had a sister when I was 18 months old. So we don't recall much of the early years.

When I was about 5 years old my mom enrolled my sister and me in a childcare program. We ended up on the same stage during a music concert. During that time I became stage fright and my sister took over and sung the song I was suppose too. She did a great job from what I was told. My dad was suppose to come over about the age of 6 and pick my sister and I up for the weekend. And all I know is he never came. I was sitting on the porch and waiting with my backpack. That same year I was rushed to the hospital with an Asthma attack. Had the chicken pox and was held back in first grade because of all of this. When I went back to school I meet a young girl named Lacy Compton. Now she was my first childhood crush. To this day I don't know what happen to her. But the next year when I repeated the same grade my sister and I were in the same class. Talk about strange. Anyway we got through it.

When I was in fourth grade I had a Ken Griffey Jr. rookie card upper deck that came up missing. I never found it. I had taken it to school to show some friends and next thing I know it was gone. In my fifth grade class I got in a fight with a boy named Michael Fergusion. We lived in a apartment complex and my stepbrother and me went down to the pool area where Michael was. He started talking trash to me and finally my stepbrother started to duck his head under water. The police were called and we were told to stay away from one another. I don't remember much of that story but I do remember I could not find a can opener to open a can of beans so I took out my BB gun and when I shot at it I missed and hit the back glass door. It of course shattered. I got in so much trouble!

In 4th grade all the way into 8th grade I played football. I was a linebacker, tight end, and center. When I played center in 7th grade I broke my arm and had to go to the hospital. After 8th grade was over I then moved into high school and took the physical to play football but I had problems using the restroom in the cup. So I did not make the team. When 10th grade rolled around I tried out for the golf team and made it. But had a problem because at the time I was working at Texas Lil's dude ranch saddling horses and working the golf driving range and that I had to make a decision so I went with the golf team. It was hard because I enjoyed working on the ranch and I guess because it brought me closer to my dad who was the head wrangler and did a lot of other things on the ranch. When I went to 11th grade I was still on the golf team this time moving up to variety. But had got a job working at Winn Dixie working as a cashier, and doing promotional work. I was Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, Chester Cheetah, Mr. Turkey, and Cowboy Ryan during Halloween. I enjoyed it greatly. But soon found myself working more and doing less homework. Towards the middle of Feb. I decided I was going to focus more on my studies and less on my work. So I did and found myself the next year in 12th grade. That was a very special time because I had never really dated much and when I went on a date after the homecoming game with a girl I had known since I was about 11 and had always had a crush on it was cool. We went and ate at a nearby restaurant and I was so nervous I could not eat anything. All she wanted was cheese sticks and all I wanted was a date. I don't know what she thought of the date but I remember saying to myself this is totally the one. Her name is kept private out of respect for her. I found myself sending her flowers on her birthday and wrote some very special notes that I gave to her. Biggest mistake I ever made. Guys don't ever tell a girl how you feel until you have been dating for a while! I found myself totally wanting to be around her not in some stocking kind of way but in a puppy love kind of way! In January of that year a guy at my school killed himself in the bathroom and my mentor and close friend Coach Kevin Briggs tried to save his live. He killed himself over a girl that had just broken up with him. It was hard because Coach Briggs was a great man and a great person and knew this young man. He has never been the same since. As the year wore on I find myself lost and walked out of school only to enroll in home school. I struggled to find who I was and came to a deep dark depression. After many years I finally found a Dr. who helped me get back on track.

After going from job to job for several years I came to work for a company called Honeywell i was only 22 yrs old. They welcomed me in and treated me so special it was like home. For several years I went from the new employee to receiving so many corporate awards. I went from being in Texas to seeing California, New York and New Jersey. It was like I was on top of the world in a way. They allowed me to meet so many from V.P of the company to director of operations. So many great experiences from that and I guess that is why I gained so much learning and knowledge of the kind of life I want to live from that. When my grandfather died in 2005 Honeywell sent flowers and gave me a nice card to show how much they cared. When he died a part of me died too. Here was a man when others had given up on me he never did. When others wanted to throw me to the street he wanted me to prove them wrong! He was my father in so many ways. He was a very special man who gave more than he received. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him and all he did for me.

My mom and dad both fought drug abuse and my mom was abused physically by one of her husbands. Neither one of them knows how much what they went through has taught me. My dad also had a girl magazine and when I was about 13 I looked over the pictures and was confused. That was my first encounter with that. And although it has been many years since then I too have struggled my own bouts with Alcohol and sex.

In my lifetime I have traveled to California, New York, New Jersey, Iowa, Oklahoma, Kansas, Arkansas, Mexico, Costa Rica, Kansas, Louisiana, New Mexico, Arizona, Tennessee, and of course Texas. I have meet so many people including Bryon Nelson, Mark Brooks, many others who I can't name off hand. I have been a part of many great experiences and have had my heartbroken too.

When I was at Honeywell I meet this woman named Jennifer. Her family called her Jen for short. She was amazing and we feel deeply in love fast. We would spend each day together and finally we only knew each other only 2 months when we moved in together. Not recommended by me. Everything was going great at first but then my work started picking up and it had a hard time on our relationship so we walked away. I wish everyday that i would have just worked a little harder on my relationship with her and less on work. One of my weaknesses is love. I get so lonely sometimes and I know that God will one day bring the right woman into my life. I have developed a deep faith in the Lord. I am not perfect and everyday have to remind myself of that. I try so hard to impress people and to feel needed. But to know me is to either love me for me or to hate me for me. I am ever so grateful for the experiences of love, adventure, people, and places I a have been.

In college today I maintain a 4.1 G.P.A. with all I have been through and some stories not told today because of family matters I want to say thank you all and I hope each of you understand that in life we have great times and bad and we all need each other to get through them. There are no right or wrong ways to get to heaven just to get there is the only thing that matters when life is over. Enjoy being who God created you to be. Don't be someone your not and understand that even the best fall down. But being the best requires you to keep going and growing. Get back up and never give up on yourself or on God. He is faithful!