My Life as a Bisexual Woman

My life as a bisexual women is not as easy as it sounds Sometimes it feels like I am leading a double life because my family and co-workers don"t know that I love being with women and their touch is breath taking. I love men too but being with a women is just different she knows where you like to be touched and how hard or gentle you like it. She smells so good . It took me awhile to admit that I was bi. Me and my man was separated at the time and so I was single again and going to parties with friends was a scary thing. So was meeting new men.

So I went to a few parties with a good friend of mine; he was a little bit on the freaky side. SO anyways everyone was having a great time dancing and drinking and doing jello shots so this beautiful woman was showing me the right way to do a jello shot and then next thing I know she was kissing me. I was so shocked but it felt so good so I went with the flow and kissed her back. So that was my first experience kissing a woman. That night I also danced with this other bisexual woman - she was very sexy and very open with being bisexual cause on the dance floor she kissed me and ran her hands all over my body I was loving the attention it felt different then a mans touch she knew where i liked to be touch. That was a great night after that Night I knew I loved being with women and wanted to go further with the women but it never happened

I kept searching and searching even tried like yahoo chat to hook up with some. I never find any women that was bi-sexual or that admit that they was. so me and my man got back together and had a another child together. I don't" regret having him just the timing was not very good.

My mans job was going great and he wanted to move to Florida get promoted with his job so I was all for it a new life new friends maybe then I can find some bi-sexually women . I didn't tell him that of course not cause he don"t know that I have been with a women before. So The hardest part of moving away is saying good bye to friends and family .

I am very shy and meeting new people so someone suggested I go on adult Friend Finder to help me meet new people. SO i make a name and fill out my profile and I put in it I am bi-sexual and here looking to meet bi women to become friends with. I also put that not looking for men. OK so I go in chat and wow there was allot of men trying to talk to me. I was very rude to some saying I wanted a women and men suck and cant give me what I need or want. The first day was terribly no luck talking to any bi women in my area but I don't give up I wait a few days and go back . I finally talk to this bi women that lives in my area we chat for a bit and she says her friend is having a party I should come. I wanted to come but was very shy and nervous about meeting new people . We talk the next day some more after a few times I decide to meet her and her friend ( she is bi to) actually its her girlfriend. The first night we met was terribly I haven't drank ed in a long time and I wanted to fit in so I drank ed alto that night we ended up going to a club which was 20 minutes away meeting another of their friends, He was cute and very fun and easy to talk to. So after a few drinks at the club she comes up to me and starts to kiss me so I do the same back It felt good. Men around us was watching and loving the show. I enjoy all the attention that night from them made me feel special and wanted., all of us became really good friends we hung out all the time . But nothing sexual really happen just kissed and that was about it.

She tells me she is having a Birthday party and i got to come out so i made sure I was there allot of new faces was there thats where I met my best friend she was very sexy she has long blond hair and very petite . I talked to her before in chat just never met her. So I was so glad to have gone that was a great night after the bar everyone goes back to her house for the after party. Dancing and allot of drinking me and her get a chance to talk and later that night have fun. I wont go into details but since that night me and her hang out every weekend. she is my best friend . So We get alot of nasty stares when we go out and she kisses me in public and holds my hand. We didn"t"t care tho we love being real why should we hide the way we are.

So I think someday I will tell my family , friends and My man too that I am BI and I love a womens touch not sure how they will react but I am sick of living 2 different lives. I'm sure my family would be upset and saying that's not right what your doing but they will still love me. Not sure how my man will act probably hate it knowing all this time I was lying to him and having fun with other women . He probably will think that he did"t satisfy my needs so I had to go to women

so for now I hate that I have to hide but its not a easy thing to tell that you are gay as some people put it. Believe me I wish it would be different I know alto of women are out there are bi or bi curious so just let me give you some advice It's not easy being bi but its worth it I would never want to be straight again.
I have this one good friend of mine keeps saying he is going to make me straight I laugh at him and say never you could never replace the feel of a women. her touch and the way she kisses. so wish me luck when I finally have the nerve to tell the world that I am a Bi-sexual women .