My Life in Summary

My mind ached. It was 10:30pm and there I was in downtown Philidelphia in gloves, coat, boots and a lonely cigartte. I needed something to do to clear my head and I saw the sign in the distant moonlight. It was a bowling alley. Stewart Lanes was the name. It seemed like a strange name for a place to bowl but nothing really made sense to me anymore. The chips, I thought to myself. If only I had the chips that night.

I came inside and was greeted by a lumberjack looking fellow with a long beard.

"How about that weather out there?" he said trying to make the normal conversation. He probly knew something was up. Not many people go bowling alone.

I wasn't quite sure how to reply. I was never good in social situations with people I meet the first time. So I stood there like a fool. Standing.

Finally I manged to utter "What was that?" trying to buy myself some time to come up with a response. I suppose it didn't really matter. I would never see this man again in my life. I could've said anything really and it wouldn't matter.

"I said how about that weather? You alright boy? you look a little pale." he said and then spat into a cup.

"Sure im fine." I lied "It's pretty cold out thats for sure."

Alone is a word for some taken into their minds as scary feeling that leaves a sinking like that of a stone in water. As for me, I embrace the feeling because it's all I've known for the past 6 years.