My Obsession

You say you can't do anything --
at least, not at this time.
And, yet you look at me, in that certain way,
and turn me on a dime.
Your words tell me one thing,
while your actions say another.
So everything inside of me,
I keep under cover.

My friends say I should walk away,
and stop feeding your male pride.
My family says it's shameful,
and I should keep this all inside.
No one understands
the extent of my concession.
And I, myself, can't understand
why you are my obsession.

I've tried so hard to walk away,
but can't get too far from you.
I've tried to shut emotion down,
but my heart cries out the truth.
I've tried to say it's only physical --
but I know that is a lie.
I'm tired of pretending I don't feel what I feel --
I'm tired of trying to hide.

I can't turn away from you,
when I need you too much.
I can't stop the dreams and thoughts of you --
the need to feel your touch.
I can't hide it, anymore --
my heart is your possession.
I'm in love you -- I can't back down.
you are my obsession.