My Personal Experience with God

I have always believed in God, but never looked for him. I never went to church, rarely prayed and never read the Bible. While I was pregnant with my third child I experienced something I never thought would happen to me. Every morning my husband would go to work and I would fix him some breakfast, then I would go back to sleep. A knock at the door would wake me on one occasion, but when I went to the door no one was there.

I didn't think anything of it until the next day when it happened again. I wasn't scared when I saw no one, just confused as it was maybe a dream. The knock at the door stopped and I continued my life as usual. Then a doctors visit changed my life, he said that my blood test had come back positive for Down Syndrome (D'S).

There was a high probability the baby would be born with D'S. I was blown away, not knowing how it would be to have a child with D'S and if I would be able to care for him/her the right way.He wanted me to have a test done called amniocentesis which would determine if the baby indeed had D'S, but there was a low chance that I could lose the baby if I took the test.

He told me many women would want to take the test so they would have an abortion early in the pregnancy or to be ready emotionally. I had one week to go to my appointment when yet again the knock at the door, this time I was expecting someone and the knock was louder this time. When I went to the door no one was there, this baffled me as I stood by the door trying to figure out what it was, my imagination or someone playing a trick on me.

I decided to read the Bible, a gift my dad had given to me not to long ago and try and see if there was an answer to what was happening to me when I read ( Revelation 3:20) 'Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me.
I had goosebumps and it made me want to read more. It was like God was knocking at my door for me to let him in.

I read the Bible every night and then the day of my doctors appointment arrived. I felt more comfortable with my issue and told the doctor I didn't want to risk my child's life just to find out if it was D'S.
If my baby was born with D'S that means God intended it to be that way. It could be a blessing and bring my family closer. My next doctors appointment I was told I might have cervical cancer and that I had to have a test called biopsy done after I had the baby to make sure I didn't.

This did not bother me either for I had faith in God and would accept all he had for me. The big day arrived and I was ready to deliver, as soon as my daughter came to the world it was clear she did not have D'S. My next appointment I was tested again and it came back negative for cervical cancer.

This experience has opened my heart closer to the Lord and I give thanks to hall I have. I am making sure my children seek him as well so they live happier lives. I now continue to go to church, pray to my Lord and read the Bible more. God seeks your love as well, you just have to hear him when he speaks.