My Weight Loss Journey: Excess Skin SUCKS!

If I had known as a child what I know today about health and what it's like to be fat, I would have rethought every bite of food I ate and every "No!" in response to playing outside with the neighborhood kids.

You know, losing weight for some people is like walking. It falls off some people and their skin pops back with the elasticity of a teenager's body. The rest of us have our struggles with food. I know that the weight would fall off if I'd just be able to stick to my diet and keep exercising, but I'm human...Well, I'm like most humans. I love to eat. Food is my friend. I have a deep, loving relationship with food. It makes me feel better when I'm bored, sad, lonely, etc. Now, this doesn't make my addiction to over eating right, but I am being upfront and honest about what I feel, so I can reach out to others with the same problems.

I don't mean to stray off this article's intention. Here's the deal...I have been on my life change for nearly 6 months now and I'm down almost thirty pounds. Most people's bodies tighten up, well, not mine. Now some areas have tightened up, but when you've had two children, things get stretched to the limit. I don't want to be graphic, but the intent of this article is to bare the honest truth. My stomach has what is fondly known as a "skin apron". I've always been jealous of the overweight people that just have a nice round belly. Mine hangs over. From one hip to the other, there is a big fat roll. Above that is another fat roll, but it doesn't hang over. That fat roll is starting to go away, but the lower "skin apron" is getting thinner in girth, but it just keeps sagging. I hate it. I could probably be a few pant sizes smaller if it weren't for that "skin apron". It's frustrating, because all of your pants are tight around your waist and huge around your hips and but and legs.

I will be the first to admit that I will have a tummy tuck when I am done having children and am at my goal weight. I always tell people that I don't like to even look at myself naked, so why on earth would anyone else want to look at me naked? My husband loves me and my body. He doesn't say it, but I know that he'd love me to be thinner, because as he sees me losing weight, he seems to be more affectionate and quick to tell me how beautiful I'm looking. I look in the mirror and I am disgusted by the excess skin. When I wear dresses that are light weight, I have to wear Spanx underneath to smooth all that skin out. Tummy tuck, here I come! Just a few more years to put up with the skin.

Overall, I'm so happy that the weight is coming off. I'm just frustrated with the appearance of my body with the excess skin. I guess that is the price one pays for being overweight their entire life and not really caring much about it. Man, had I known...things would be so much different now.