Not Real

You're what I thought that I had found
But you're not really here at all
I look at you, into your eyes
I felt my heart, I felt it fall

You're the very existence of uncertainty
You're the only one who loves me for me
You're the one, you're the one who knows what I feel
But you're not real
You're not real

I scream and I bleed and I tear at these wounds
I keep them to remind myself of you
But you were never here, never here at all
I would've sworn I felt it, I felt my heart fall

I create you to be someone other than you
It's easier that way so that's what I do
You're the vision, the epitomy of love
You'll never really, never be enough

If I could hold you maybe my eyes would go dry
It's for you, it's for you that I cry
And so badly I want to be held in your arms
I ask me, I ask you, where is the harm

I love you, I hate you, I don't know you at all
You have saved me, you catch me, every single time I fall
You're the one, you're the only, your soul was made for mine
I remember, I take snapshots, I think back in time

When you were here I was yours
The lock Ihad bolted became an open door
You smiled, oh you smiled, and I felt I was whole
I only saw you once, and I'll see you no more

I feel lonely, I feel broken, I feel shattered inside
You're not real, so I tell myself, but I know that I lie
I want you, I need you, I feel you near me
You won't ever, you won't ever be