Obsessing Over Everything

It is so strange that people think people like me to be insane, p.s. I think the same about them. Do you know it is especially hard to be good looking and smart. Because you already know when someone is about to con job you and you can stop it. But then you hear your pretty and your smart and that's a bad combination.

Your probably wondering what does that have to do with the topic and the truth is nothing. I just write what is at the very surface. But I do my best writing on the spur of the moment or like now when I awaken at 2 am and my mind says to me write, write, write now!

The truth is in about two weeks I have only had a good nights sleep 2 times. Take tonight for instance I fell asleep on a few hours ago. See a pattern of twos how odd! Anyhow!I know if I had sat and wrote before I went to sleep I could still be asleep. I am sure of that because my thoughts upon my pillow were what am I going to wear to church tomorrow and write an Article.

And as you can imagine by the fact that I am writing I have also looked into the idea of what to wear tomorrow once again. Sometimes it sucks to have this OCD personality. Oh but yes I am! You show me a Leo without OCD and I will kiss your ears. No! Not literally but come on we are grave perfectionist and we want things done the second we thought of it.

And put that together with the fact that their is this man I am totally in love with and he has no idea to the degree that I like him, and wanting him to come over last night. No! I did not get to see him, but here again is a classic sign of OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder at its best.

I am going to have to get a happy medium and say to myself have I done what I think I need to do? And if I have then it is time to meditate and empty the mind. That can make for a very healthy person. Now there is something us. The lack of sleep while not smoking was 10 minutes asleep, 2hours awake. but the two days that i did smoke I slept well and even slept late at that.

I can tell you this and that is throughout this entire article you are wondering what was the real topic, Insomnia, OCD, or the Love of her life. Good luck and when you freaking figure it out let me know to. I just have a head full of half asleep thoughts that just want out. You should watch for my book Life After Mom Died because the thoughts and actions in that will keep you into every word and make you grateful as hell to have your own thoughts.

Goodnight all, It's been real!