Overdose

I drop the orange bottle on the floor
hundreds of little time bombs fall
I see them and wish they could take me
then i wouldnt have to deal with this at all

tiny little capsules filled with poison
and a way out from beneath this pain
letting myself, let go of this situtation
of a lonely girl you cannot save

broken tears wash through me
they clear my eyes, then blur once more
I cant see how many are there
but I can feel them in my hand, like never before

the pain is taking over my mind
my heart aches like it might stop beating
these tiny little capsules can do the trick
take away the memories, that arent healing

wondering if its worth the risk
if i should just give up and let go
or if i have any fight left inside
in a place that i dont know

i put them back into the bottle
the tears in streams staying strong
the flood gates have been opened
and I am now fighting to hold on

my shaky hands start calming
and the pain stays, stabbing deep
wondering where i went wrong in this plan
to finally rest in peace

the aching finally numbing
the pain once again buried in my soul
until I have the courage to down the bottle
letting the overdose take control