Part 2: My Mother Thinks I'm Ugly!

First, let me clear up one thing: I was looking for a good spot in my daughter's room to place a very special gift I had for her. You see, it's a tradition that we have in our family. You present a gift directly to someone, and you also place another gift in a spot where they wouldn't normally look so that whenever they come across the gift, it's an unexpected treat that never fails to lift their spirit. That's how I happened to come upon her diary that day.

Alright, alright - just because I came upon the diary didn't mean I had to open it and read it. What can I say? I read only the last entry, though. Really!

Either way, I have a situation now that is much more of a priority than my having done a little snooping, or my wanting to get a nose job. Now I have to figure out how I'm going to clean up this great big mess I've made. It never even occurred to me that I would negatively affect my daughter just because I wanted to simply change the way I look. Well, I guess all of this is not so simple considering that things have turned out the way they have.

I have postponed getting the surgery because of this situation. I may just cancel the whole thing altogether. Yeah, I guess I should do just that. Considering that it's going to be that much harder now for me to be comfortable with this "unique" nose of mine, it would be worth it to learn to appreciate it if it would only restore my daughter's sense that my love has nothing whatsoever to do with anything internal or external when it comes to her.

I can't imagine that I could make a 14-year old child understand the concept of a mother's love; and how, by all that's good and pure in nature, it can be totally and completely transcendent. But, it appears now that that is the monumental responsibility that lies before me.

Well, I guess the first thing I'm going to have to do is figure out how I'm going to explain how I accidentally happened to find out, in the first place, how she felt about my wanting to get a nose job. I'm gonna' have to think about that for about a minute.

Here goes!