Poem About Me

Most days I'm average, depending on the lighting
Reserved and quiet; with gift to make others smile or laugh
I bathe in the feeling when I make people feel better about themselves
A calm sense of belonging washes over me
And I wouldn't change even if I wanted to
A sensitive writer with a passion for cinema
Likable, dependable, and loyal describe me best
I have the perfect shoulder to cry or lean on
With humor that is greatly enjoyed by those who understand
I breathe with music; each chord is my anchor
A guitar is the key to my heart; film, a door to my personality
A good movie can speak volumes about my persona
A nerd with a heart of gold is a rock star in the making
Eyes that hold a strong sense of knowledge and an old soul
A customized version of nonconformity and acceptance
I choose my own destiny, I live in the future
Empathy is my main focus, without it I die
Overly dramatic, maybe, but it's only because I care
A sentimental dreamer with modern expectations
If I were to change, I think I would miss the old me

And sometimes I wish I wasn't anything to be an example of
I'm my own burden; with an abundance of regrets in a bottle
Why can't I be like everyone else; the kind who live to disagree
Would it be easier to be the same? Would it be worthwhile?
The ones who never wish to be anything else or never think of others
I'm not like that but I wish I was so I wouldn't be me
My days are long and so are my nights; broken, lost, and free?
I dislike being introverted; the only person I hate is myself
I'm a handful in many ways if I don't feel comfortable
If I live to be one hundred, I'd still be the same
Someone with misfortune printed as a middle name
I often think, 'Will I be missed when I'm gone?'
There is no easy answer and there never will be
Into each life a little rain must fall
For me, it's pours by the gallons, straight into dusk
If I could, I'd harness the energy of the sun
And sit back in the role of the blatantly strong one
I carry the world on my shoulders, or so I'm told
Waiting in the shadows for a better something
I wish I was proud to be me