PS... Note to Self

I was stunned today. I mean smacked up side of the head, hit by a Mac truck, fell off the roof stunned. Worse than that I was ashamed and awash with feelings of shame and guilt.

Why?

I guess I should start at the beginning, I had been busy with the house cleaning all day and was using the TV as a babysitter for my three year old son. I know bad, bad, bad.

Now I have to say that while I allowed the TV to entertain him, I did make sure that the shows that were on were not inappropriate for him.

Little did I know exactly how much he was getting from the shows.

You see, that is where the problem first started... there was this infomercial for some new exercise equipment on and I just left the station alone as I felt safe in allowing him listening to it.

Over the next hour and a half, totally enthralled he watched 5 of these shows about weight loss systems, diet plans and equipment meant to get you back into shape.

He was quiet and entertained and I could listen with one ear and maybe learn something. I thought no more about it than that and was happy with the fact that he was quiet and out from under foot.

Little did I know what was to come.

You see, later that day we had to go out and do some grocery shopping, well maybe a bit more than just a little, the store was packed.

By the time I was done the cart loaded down and I was absolutely physically and emotionally exhausted!

So here I am slumped over the handle of the shopping cart in the checkout line when my little sweetheart pipes up in a loud voice "Why are you fat?"

OMG!... Melt into the floor, turn a share of red that makes a poinsettia look pale and run for the door screaming. Ok maybe I didn't run but I sure wanted to bolt from there!

Look, I am no longer a spring chicken with the lithe and graceful moves of a gymnast! I have a house to look after, a family to care for, 5 of us, and a business to run on-line.

Cooking, cleaning and work leaves me little time for just me and when I do get some "me" time I am usually so exhausted that sitting down is all the exercise I want.

So yes, I do have a few extra pounds.

All this ran through my mind as I looked into his questioning little face, and in a voice loud enough for those who heard his question I said "So that I can give you the biggest hugs possible"

He beamed up at me as I hugged him and said "I love you", and once more all is right and well in the world.

PS... Note to self, tomorrow we go on a diet.

Michelle Hoffmann, Weight Loss Package, www.midastouchmediagrp.com