Saving the World One Person at a Time

When you want to change the world, you have to start with yourself. You can't just moan and groan. You have to sell people on your ideas. Show them what a good time your having without drugs. Show them what a good time your having without sleeping around. I haven't had sex yet, but I like to dance and exercise, go bird watching and be creative. I'm just a sweet girl. I care. And I think it shows.

I love listening to the radio and it wasn't long ago when everyone was so crass. But now I hear sweet words from people. I wouldn't say it was all my doing, but I believe leading by example. I try not to swear too much. I try to remember how it feels to be yelled at. And people love me now. I miss my old friends but its time to make new ones. They didn't want me. I had a wonderful boyfriend but he left me. And we keep in touch and I still care for him, but if he is scared of me, fine. I'm not a psychopath.

I used to have a big ego and thought it was all about me. I would go to dog shows and was really lonely. I wanted a boyfriend, but everyone wanted drugs sex and rock and roll. Now I don't mind a little sex for anyone, but I don't think you should be promiscuous. I think love is much more important.

Unfortunately, I always had a specific fantasy about a handsome gentleman to sweep me off my feet and most guys are anything but debonair. And the one guy who I met that was smooth was a total womanizer. So I guess nothings perfect. Even guys who are decent and loving can be totally inept. I guess its just a matter of finding the right person. I probably have a vivid imagination, but it doesn't mean I'm promiscuous. I never touched illegal drugs and don't get high off prescription medicine, I like to meditate and feel good listening to spiritual leaders.

I wish I had found Jesus earlier honestly, but nothings perfect. I wish I could say everything was, but its not. Life just doesn't happen that way, even if you sold your soul to the devil. He wants your soul, he doesn't care about you. I always thought I'd get married and have children but everyone wants you to have a big career. I just want to write. I'm sorry I'm not some high powered ego maniac. I like helping people.