Searching & Searching: Looking to Find Myself

aishaladon
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahiim

Searching and searching

Looking to find myself

Where am I at, where have I been, who am I

Searching and searching

Looking to find myself

Under my pillow, and beneath my prayer mat

Searching and Searching

To find

Something one of a kind

Tradition, and Culture

Meaning and Understanding

Knowledge and Action

Striving

Searching and Searching

Looking to find myself

When all the while I was hear

Underneath this khimar

Behind this laptop

And dhikar beads in hand

I am an African Muslim Woman

Dealing with the issues of this land

America the free

America in me

Who am I

Searching and Searching

Looking towards tradition

Looking toward culture

only to become more confused

Still Striving

Still Hungering

To find the true me that lies inside

Fearful of what others may find

Knowing only he will decide

Bismillah

Bismillah

I will no longer hide

Inside myself

And will be myself

Until the day I die

ameen

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Jombo, Hola, Shalom, AsSalaamu Alaikum, My name is Aisha. I am a freelance writer/photographer residing in Sacramento, CA. I love reading, writing, and learning new things, especially new languages and cultu...  View profile

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