Still Obsessed

I've tried to back away --
to close off my heart and mind.
I even began seeing another man,
whose treatment was more kind.
A man whose touch was gentle --
whose kisses were soft and sweet.
So, why did I still think of you,
in the midst of passion's heat?

Through months of pain and torment,
and knowing what I know,
With all that you have put me through,
I still can't let you go.
I thought, given enough time,
I'd let go and begin anew.
But you still have a hold on me --
my heart still belongs to you.

No matter how much I want
to see you walk through that door,
I can't let myself look at you,
when you come into the store.
I can't allow myself to
again be mesmerized.
I know what it does to me,
when I get lost in your eyes.

All my life, it's been natural
to hold my feelings at bay.
With other men before you,
it was easy to walk away.
I seek, but cannot find,
the logical part.
What is it about you
that so completely binds my heart?