Stressful Events

Life as we live it with all of the events we face that cause us to either stand strong or subdue our thoughts to wither away in inevitable weakness. I have had a variety of stressful events over the last past year and can talk in detail about them all but I will limit them to two as ask and run on with the details of each and how both affected my life. I will begin with talking about a very stressful situation I am currently dealing with that involves a family member. I recently learned that my youngest brother is in threat of dying from lung cancer if his chemotherapy does not work. I never in my life imagined this moment to be, more importantly, less than 4 years of losing our mother and two months of losing our grandmother. I am simply floored and don't know what to do. I knew something was wrong with my brother when I went home to my grandmother's funeral; I saw pain and sickness in his eyes. I took him to the doctor that very day but they didn't find his cancer right off. He kept hurting and getting sick and finally they needed to hospitalize him, plus he was losing weight fast. After three different exams, we find he has cancer and 80% of his lungs are covered and it is spreading fast. I cannot bare to loose my brother or another family member now. He depends on me to help him through this situation financially, mentally and physically; which brings me to my next stressful event.

I am in a financial bind like no one can imagine and my family can't seem to realize that. They expect me to pay for everything and I have other brothers and sisters who are much more well off than I am. Right now I am working a job that I completely hate and am footing the bills for me and my husband. My husband at this time cannot work and I am making little money. We are barely getting by. No one seems to understand that I am not a bank. My family knows my heart is good and I will do everything for them that is possible or within my means. I have been the mental standing ground for my family since my mother passed and I get very weary sometimes. I know that others my look at my situation and say that I have no reasons to feel bad or complain because at least I am able to be looked at gracefully by my family and maintain a living through it all. I know someone would probably tell me that I need to apply the keeping a journal of gratitude to this situation. Many would tell me I need to count my blessings and move on without regret of doing what I can and not what my family may want me to do. I would have to admit it is very hard and that is what pushes me to feel like I am a failure sometimes.

When All Else Fails, You Can Count On Your Faith And Belief In God.......

I don't want my family to suffer for nothing but things are out of my control and I know that god never places more on us than we can bare. I have a strong faith and belief in god and his works. I fell to being a victim of loosing faith 2 years ago but I found the renewed faith within the last year. I began to savor on the moments of life as I lived and stopped holding on to past regrets. I became a witness of god when I decided to let go and allow him to move freely in my life. With looking at the possibility of loosing another family member and experiencing financial difficulty all in the same time, I have to admit, life is very stressful right now. I continue to try and practice the necessary steps of pursuing and keeping happiness in my life but stressful moments make it very challenging. In conclusion, the last thing I want to do is not get the best out of life and stress over events that can be handled in a different manner. I have to mentally be strong and continue to grow in my faith and trust that all is well. I have to look at what has been done for my good and move forward. I will continue to pursue happiness and take these stressful events as they are and deal with them how god wills me to. I will take a look at how others cope and move on and lead by example. Nothing is ever to hard to maintain and make better.