The Chase

You can lie to the world, but you cannot lie to yourself. What are we running away from? Is admitting truth so difficult that you need to fake it to yourself? Strange!

The chase is endless. I don't know what i want in life. I am chasing something which i don't think is even real! They say it's state of mind but i want to believe its not. Because if it was, then why don't i get into that state ever?

Yes i am chasing happiness. Do you know where to find it? Do you where it stays? Do you know one person who has it? Do you know how much it costs? The only thing i know is that it surely does cost! And how... i have i paid a price for all the happiness i have wanted. So i value it more than you. Price in the form of personal space, small little joys of life, peace of mind, realtions and my own self.

I have always loved people unconditionally and hurt unintentionally. I have really never valued emotions coz i never felt them. When i was young i had conditioned myself to be cold, as a mountain of ice that will take ages to melt perhaps. I had always lived like a happy fun ball that doesnt care whether it gathers moss when its rolling or who it crushes on its way. Till the happy fun ball's joy ride came to a hault. Everything that it gathered on the way was peeling out of its skin and trust me it was painful. The fun ball had lost its shine, its lusture and in turn only got loads of moss and wounds that it still is carrying. Wounds that went deeper into the skin and left a scar. Happy fun ball had forgotten how to be happy. It was forced to see the destruction all around, forced to see the mess that was left. Fun ball died that day!

People cannot see other happy people particularly if they themselves aren't happy. They seldom forget that the only person responsible for their state is 'they themself!' If anybody who can bring them out of misery is they themself! Why blame the happy funball? Its not my fault that i was happy and now its YOUR fault that i dont know the meaning of Happy.

And then i made this world of my own, where there is no inverted curve on anybody's face. Everybody is a happy fun ball and its amazing. Nobody pulls you down for being what you are. All you do it what you want to do and have fun. It really doesn't take much to be happy. You just need to get up and do something about it. Life is beautiful and there are more things that can bring happiness.

Remember, at the end everything is happy. If its not happy, its not THE END