The End of My Struggles was when the Real Walk Began

When I was younger, I remember how much I struggled with so many issues. But I must against all of the odds, I prevailed. It all stems back to that day I had become saved. I felt no self worth, and I hated my life, in fact, I hated it so much that I had wanted to end it. However, God did not let it happen.

Sometime in the past, when I was still trying to discover who I was, a person had came up to me and said, "you are so wicked why don't you read the Bible." So I started out with Job. In that book, I was able to relate to the troubles that Job had faced. Then later, as I went on, I read Revelations. As I read this book I came to realize what the end would be. Finally, I read Matthew, otherwise known as the book of the Five Great Discourses. In this book I learned that Christ loves me, and that he died for me.

Almost immediately, when I arrived at the middle of the book I came to be able to visualize all that I read. At this time my mind had thought a lot of things, and I tell people this, "it was as if I could see again, for I once was blind, but now I can see. It was like I could feel my heart opening, like a hot knife through butter God had pierced my stone casing, and I felt the difference. It was like all of the dried up, hardened, thick, and dense wax was removed from my ears, for I could finally hear the truth.

It was as if I took a long shower, and I the boiling hot water mixed with the suds from the citrus scented soap washing away my sin and cleansing my spirit, leaving me to be rejuvenated and energized."

Upon the next day, it was highly noticeable how much I had changed. I took on more responsibility as a 7^th grade student. Then, as time passed, I studied more than I usually did, and I had acted very mature. In class, it was as if my mind had expanded, for I said so much more than I normally did.

Amongst the smaller changes there were a lot of bigger changes. I walked as if I cared and had something to live for. My selfishness and dishonesty had faded away. I had showed compassion for others that I never used to before. I didn't feel alone anymore even.

Days later, I had started praying constantly. I had a close friend to talk to, and my walk was just beginning. However, I wish that my walk on this path had started sooner. Of course, for God, it was just the right time. Praise God for my salvation. There is by far so much more, but if I put more down, I would not have enough ink to print it all up. Therefore, it can be concluded that I am no longer blind, cold hearted, deaf, filthy, foolish, and most importantly, unsaved. Righteous through Christ I am, for none are righteous on their own. And although my walk had just started, and struggles float my way looking for ruin, my foundation is on the rock, and if I sin I will always realize that God loves me, and I praise Him for His love.