The Gia

I fell in love with you last night
Or maybe it was sometime this morning

It's not like I didn't love you before
Didn't ache for you
Didn't cry for you
Didn't need you like breath

But last night
You set something on fire
And I lay awake in bed
Writing poems in my head
And they were all better than this one

But I had to write it down
Before I became an asshole again
In case I forgot what it felt like
To love you so completely
Or I forget the reasons why
I fell so hard tonight

You're beautiful, but that's not it
The years ahead will break us down
Leave us dried, wrinkled, dusty, grey and pink zombies
Hopped up on pain meds and liver pills and
Your beauty will be a memory
Though I am positive you will not admit it

And that's why
More than anything

It's what makes the other girls
Want to be you
When they grow up

And why I tend to lean on you
A little too hard,
Sometimes.

I can't believe you'd want a chump like me
But I guess I shouldn't look a gift ox
In the mouth

You are my everything, my only purpose
For the strength in your heart
That you slice open
To spill precious heat
Into our hungry mouths

As we curse you and scream out
For more

For the will that drives you
Even battered on the floor
Kneeling in broken glass
With a loaded .45 in your face
To pick up a corkscrew
Like that girl in "True Romance"
And drive it through the toes
Of some bullshit
Before finishing it off with the toaster

For how you go from Soccer Mom
To Hood Rat
To Porn Star
And back again
Without missing a beat

And for a thousand reasons more
That I'll write about later
I love you

And when I've typed this in and printed it out
I'm going to thank God for my Goddess
And crawl into bed with my Queen