The Honest Seeker

I've often wondered what it is about religious constructs that tells us or at least has adherents of, not questioning. One wonders when is it okay to say simply "I don't know"? I've seen priests, minister, rabbis, in fact the leaders of many many faiths who will not admit to not knowing. Oh I know there are some that admit to this but why is it so hard for many of the hard liners to admit not knowing? Is there something in us that figures that if we fool ourselves, aping what others say, going along with all the steps in the right order...that somehow we will also fool the Creator? How can we come to this? How can we say "it is" when we have a voice saying "it may not be". How can we say the small voice is God or the small voice is "Satan" if you believe in Satan that is? How can we say any of it for certain?

If God is the supreme, the highest and the creator of all that is then perhaps that same God knows what is deep in our hearts, what we question, if we are good or at least try to be good, if we are struggling but that it is a truthful struggle. We can't fool God...at least I don't think we can. If we could...would that make God not somehow God then? So much to think about. You say "ah..but that is just it, you are thinking too much!" maybe so but better to come to God free and honest and truthful with your mind working and not just going along ..letting just anyone lead us here without much thought.

Having faith is having a certain amount of belief that what you believe in ..is at least close to truth if not truth. Having faith is hoping that what you believe in..is correct and wanting to rest your life upon that.

For me having faith is being totally open and totally free, knowing that the creator knows the content of our hearts, knows that we struggle and grasp and that said creator understands us and our struggle. I choose to be honest with what I know and what I don't know. I choose to accept that God knows my heart and that it is okay for momentary lapses in faith as we seek for surer footing. I want to build my house on firm rock and to be totally invested in my own enlightening not apart as if it is happening to or through someone else. A forced faith is not a real faith...you cannot fool God.

Have trust.