The Monster Within

Afraid

Scared

Tired

A monster you will always be

Of you I'll never be free

Forever tethered

No matter how hard I try I'll never get away

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Now matter what other people see,

For being with you so long ago I will always pay the fee.

How do you do it? Appear so normal?

When inside your heart is black and your anger is bright red?

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Somehow you weasel yourself and get a strong hold,

To leave your side one must be so bold!

You suck in people and spit them out!

You play with everyone's heads, brainwash it seems.

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Monster you make them see you as something your not-to you it's just a game.

But me, no, I'll never be the same.

I went up to your house tonight, yes I sure did, to make sure she was safe.

You up to your old tricks, chased her home in the car-you are truly insane!

Afraid

Scared

Tired

I didn't get to see her, but on the phone we did talk,

Outside your house in the darkness I prayed she would walk.

But to no avail, she will not leave, stay and take the abuse she decided

I'm helpless and hopeless.

Afraid

Scared

Tired

It is not because of the days you chased me in the same manner,

For my daughter I would lay down my life on my grave your deeds, they'd be on a banner.

But here's the thing and you know it so well,

It's not fear for me that holds me back.

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Its what kind of trouble you'll give her to punish me,

Its not fear for me, its for her and that you see.

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Someday it will all come back to you to haunt.

This I try not to flaunt.

I stay quiet and meek and behind the scenes, don't stir up trouble.

Knowing full well someday God or Karma or both, you they will catch.

Afraid

Scared

Tired

Its now almost five in the morning, three hours later, wish it were a bad dream.

Someday Monster, someday your true self to everyone will be seen.

Now I'll try to lay my head down to try to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul will keep.

Please keep her close to your breast, make her safe and mentally sound.