The Questions of My Heart (On Taming)

What if our animals can talk? What if the animals in the wilderness can choose their masters? What if they will come to you and request that you can tame them? Would it not be amazing? Would it not make you feel special? How would you possibly react?

These are all the questions running in my head when I think of "taming my heart". You see, I describe my heart as an elusive element. A wild one. However, it can be likened to a wild bear, once it is tamed, you will have its allegiance for life. Or you may compare it to a dog, a Saint Bernard maybe, once tamed they will stay loyal to their masters.

Wrapped with logic, my heart can turn an intention into a threat or vice versa. A life oriented with a number of denials and rejections while growing up makes a heart so afraid to trust. Deceitful people. Opportunistic friends. Unthinkable foes. It seems that there is no longer a chance for an honest relationship to blossom. So the question is that, if my heart is the wild animal, can it be wise enough to choose an outstanding master? Is there a master worthy of my heart?

Yes, of course. Perfection. Excellence. Power. These are real forces surrounding us. It might be next to impossible attaining these most coveted qualities but somebody or someone already did. Try asking yourself. Don't you think it's you? And why not? You may ask me, how did I know that somebody or someone already did attain the qualities mentioned above? Well, that is a very good question. When we talk of the epitome of greatness only Jesus Christ qualifies. And that is true. But let us not fail to consider our best efforts to follow His footsteps. In order to find somebody around us who is trustworthy, we must learn to open up, to trust again because it takes one to know one.

Many people around us could be imploring us to tame them without being aware of it. And since we are busy begging for them to tame us too nobody seems to be in the receiving end. Just a tiny space. Just a little chance. Is it still possible for us to give even a bit of trust? Don't we like to be trusted?

My heart asks me all the time, can we take one more disappointment? What shall we do if our trusted friend will be as indifferent as all others? What if our chosen confidante` will remain a stranger? Can we still bear one more cold shoulder? Is it possible for our heart to turn into rubber so that it can accomodate rejections a million times more when necessary? And finally, can there be an end to my questioning? Is there someone out there who is asking the same questions that I have?

Have you ever felt the joy of belonging? Did you experience the arms that embraces you as you are? Have you met a person who could be your master and yet gives you unconditional attention? Was there a face that turns to you that is full of acceptance, no questions asked? Can you identify an understanding being who envelopes you with the wonder of his presence? Would you not wish to feel all these even once in your life? Are you not curious of the nature of taming? Do you accept the challenge of letting your guard down to tame or be tamed somehow?

The questions of my heart could be yours too. Be still. Do not worry. The answers will come. Meanwhile, stay cool, love and always trust God.