The Weight I Carry

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

It's the half ton school bag underneath I lie bury.

The endless syllabus and inhuman finish line,

Sky high expectations and I think "parents" -are they mine?

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

Colleges, Admissions, Ragging and oh yes, Puberty !

Should I just freak out this life or take it seriously?

I'm Torn, I'm confused, and they say "think judiciously"!

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

Degrees, certificates, security, future worry,

Cold hands, trembling knees, shivering voice,

Trust, faith, promise, integrity, or just being nice?

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

New family, new expectations, all I did was marry!

Hurricane emotions, Debris of dreams, yet smiling & bonding life.

Yes I was a Bride but now, I am a Wife.

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

The seed of future grows in me and I'm weary,

My weight on my feet and tied onto my waist,

I shall be a mother for life and now I can't wait!

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

Life, kids, job, family, I gave it all and now I'm dreary.

My little one said "Life is this, Life is that, what do You understand?"

I nurtured him in my arms; I look so small now and taller does he stand!

Ask me what's the weight I carry-

Wrinkles, sleepless nights, doctor visits, I worry.

I'm Retired , wondering into space I lay,

I'm getting ready, my grandchildren are on their way.

I carried weight on my shoulders and walked a mile,

The line on my forehead seldom got affected by my smile,

Straining longing eyes, dragging heavy feet, I shouldn't be late,

In my heart too I carried an unknown weight.

Holding her tiny finger in mine, I'm overjoyed!

To whom the weight had belonged, now I realized.

I think its long due that I stop, connect and engulf,

To a person I have lost touch with - Myself!