There I was Standing in the Rain

There I was standing in the rain
Feeling nothing but strain
On my mind as it was so weary
I cannot see as I once did so clearly

My life is so surreptitious
I don't know what is real or fictitious
I want to see things for what they are
And stop hiding behind this bar

My wife is at home waiting
While I am acting like I am at work, but rather delaying
She has done nothing wrong
I am just so tired and don't belong

There I was standing in the rain
Thinking about how drunk I am once again
What is so wrong that I feel I have to go this way
I don't want to drink, I just want to go home and stay

Lie in bed next to my wife
Cuddle with her and cause no strife
But here I am again as blind as can be
Why can't I just open my eyes and see

That life is not so bad even though I am working constantly
Drinking my pains away consistently
Telling my wife lies so not to get in a fight
I know what I am doing is not at all right

There I was standing in the rain
And then it hits me like a ton of bricks falling from a crane
I need someone's help to get this drinking to stop
Before I run into the law and arrested by a cop

Am I an alcoholic, maybe so maybe I am
They say it runs in the family, I would have always been one, damn
Why can't I just open my eyes and see the sun
Spend time at home instead with my family and have fun

When will it stop raining on me every single day
Will it ever stop and just go away
Can I be saved or have I gone too deep
Into this state of mind that I have already leaped

Then I heard her say
"Sir, you've been in the hospital since yesterday"
What happened, why am I here, what did I do
"You were hit by a drunk driver and people died, two"

This was the moment that my life was altered
It was time to put away the bottle before I am martyred
That could have been my fault from my idiocy
The rain has stopped finally

There are so many things in life that can lead to sadness. Don't let it get to this point, find a friend or a loved one and talk to them. In the end there can be so much happiness. A state of mind can drive someone so deep that they don't know how to get out. It is our job as a loved one or a family member to stand by them and help. Sometimes we are all they got.