Things I've Learned from Losing Weight

I recently lost almost 65 lbs and for the first time in my life, I feel good mentally, physically and spiritually. I found my passion is working with children. And although I have had people suggest I become a personal trainer or even a politician, I want to go back to school to be a speech therapist.

I feel like there is only so much time on this earth and it is best spent not hating people who disagree with you. I joined a political club. But I found I didn't quite fit in and while I am flattered they thought I was able to lead, I feel politics is by its nature very corrupting.

I am just a daycare worker and I plan to go back to school. And after losing almost 65 lbs. I have learned a few things about pacing yourself through meditation. I was addicted to sugar and only within the last year have I been able to conquer it. It was scary. But I feel so much better now that I have conquered this demon.

I don't feel I am qualified to call myself a true conservative. Even though I plan on waiting till marriage, I don't seem to be good at working with men and even though I have been told I am very beautiful, relationships haven't gone too good for me. So although I am not gay, I feel that I am disadvantaged from dealing with men. Don't get me wrong, I have had great friendships with men. I just haven't gotten someone who wanted me that I wanted as well.

And although I am pretty happy now that I feel better and have a job that I love and all, I cannot tell you what the future holds. This economy is very shaky and I feel like we have an ethics problem. When I was going to school in High School, everyone was cheating and there was a heroin epidemic that continues since then in Morris County NJ.

But some things I've learned along the way is that meditation can help you feel better, despite this crazy world. I don't watch a lot of TV anymore, because I find it so offensive and don't want to get any unsavory ideas. I enjoy playing the clarinet now. Which has helped me find some joy, despite being alone.

I find visualization has been very helpful. I painted a portrait of me at a lower weight and two years later, a new roommate said she thought it was a self portrait. So I guess I've matched my physical looks with the picture. Now I just need to paint myself in a beautiful relationship so I'm not cursed to live alone.

I have been alone a lot, and I feel pretty comfortable with it. I am pretty happy anyway. And I feel that it is only temporary. I'd rather be alone than to be in a relationship where I love someone more than I love them. I am very wary of men now days. I feel like there are many weird men out there in New Jersey and I'd rather be alone than be unhappy.

I'd really like to be a writer. But it is very lonely as a writer and I feel like I like people a lot and don't want to be alone all the time and I really want to do something I'm good at. So although I've had some success as a writer with almost 40.000 page views. But I feel like I am ill equipped to be a best selling writer. I think it is very hard to do, despite conquering my weight and having my boss love me at work.