This is Now

these wounds wont seem to heal themselves, although i made them appear,
these scars wont become invisible, trying to disguise them with my tears,
this pain it just wont show itself, explain it to the world,
vanishing without forgiveness, the story of a little girl,
lost inside this empty place, where defenseless people hide,
begging for the chance to live, and not allow myself to die,
where wounds become significant, in marking words you cannot say,
and speaking doesn't often come, and chase the fears away,
you lose yourself in all the dark, forgetting there is light,
and let yourself be walked all over, giving up the fight,
battles always leave their mark, and stories go untold,
you do the things that make you feel, because numbness has you sold,
and all the while you clutch to life, death tries to take you down,
worries have you screaming within, because its hard to stand your ground,
apologies that people say, never hold the meaning that they should,
and everything you've been taught so far, is everything but good,
things they tell you, break you down, and bound you by their lies,
you scream inside for someones help, and wish that you could cry,
its time to battle, good and bad, knowing you might lose,
realizing that this could be it, but it will all be over soon,
those pages go unwritten, the book of life unread,
what once was blue and colorful, is full of fear and dread,
the beautiful world that stood around you, shows fire just in sight,
and as you step to take your battle, the darkness summons night,
no lights to show you where to go, just lost inside this place,
where forgotten peoples shadows live, and memories erase,
without those arms to hold you close, alone, a battle with your fears,
and let escape, just one last time, your final set of tears.