Today Things Change

You know last night Cindy and I had probably the most serious talk about Michael Perry and Jason Burkett that we have ever had about either one of them, and she posed the question this question to me; "why would I continue to put up with this conduct from two inmates in prison?", and you know she makes a valid point. My whole intention in even corresponding with Michael and Jason was to offer them assistance; I never wanted direct involvement in either case; I just offered to tell "them" where to look. I knew direct involvement would rehash to many of the painful memories of the past that I had put away for years.

I know now frankly that I made a mistake in even contacting either Michael Perry or Jason Burkett because it has hurt me more then helped them. The stress of last year was eminence and I am subjected to comments from bimbo's who have either never accomplished anything in their lives or have pathetic existences; really you have to wonder seriously how two women that have never really known both Michael or Jason can profess their love for them. Michael's mother and I have laughed about this in the past because we both know Michael and that dumb bitch would last about a week before one or the other would leave, and as far as the other one she has bounced from inmate to inmate so many times hell I wonder how she even keeps their names straight anymore. Now Melyssa lives off public assistance and her parents and Emily lives off moneys left to her from a family member and her mother so what have either of these to bimbo's ever accomplished in life? Hell Emily isn't even out of law school and she breaks rules like it means nothing to her, and the other one lies so much I doubt she even knows what the truth is anymore. I have nothing to prove to Michael Perry or Jason Burkett; I have numerous degrees and certifications; I have spent years protecting my fellow man or woman at great risk and injury to myself; I have managed and run my own successful business; I am a good husband and father so I certainly have nothing to prove to any of these people.

I told Cindy last night that I truly think I do what I do for Michael's parents and Kathy Burkett more so then Michael and Jason anymore; I wanted nothing more then to give these people hope. I told Michael's parents I am not Jesus Christ almighty but I can tell them where and how to beat these corrupt officials at their own games, but you know as much as I want to help these people I now know I just can't; let the so called experts Emily and Melyssa be the saviors of these two boys so I don't have the pressure of Michael telling me "Ray their going to kill me if you don't help" or Jason telling me "If you don't help me I can't go home to my little girl". I just can't take this constant backbiting from both of these bitches and the emotional highs and lows that I have when one day I receive a good letter from Michael or Jason and the next day I'm told I'm the anti-Christ in human form. Ann, my psychiatrist, and I talked this morning about this at my session and she says that in the last year and a half she has seen more digression in my condition then she ever saw and she attribute that directly to the pressures of this case, and truthfully I can't blame that all on Jason and Michael because my life is in transition, all my life I have worked and contributed and now I am disabled and frankly lost on what to do. I finally decided two weeks ago when the Public Defender offered me a job here locally as a part-time investigator that I have to do something; I have to find something to do with my life; I have to get my self worth back.

You know I find it humorous that Emily and Melyssa have nerve to criticize me when neither of them has even got off their lazy asses and set foot in Montgomery County, and the fact that any evidence in this case has been found by me and neither of them, but I'm the fake and fraud, Ha! go figure. You see I have proven repeatedly I know what I'm doing and where to look and neither of them have done a damn thing but send nude pictures or told nothing but lies to one guy on how she was going to do this and that only to build up his help and then leave him hanging, but you know I truly think both Jason and Michael want that; they want to be treated like dirt and used by these two bimbos.

So today it changes; today I sent letters to both Michael Perry and Jason Burkett telling them I will no longer help either one on their cases and I will no longer have contact with either one of them; I am taking my life back and focusing on my family and me for a change; I am focusing on fighting this bipolar and cancer so that "I" can live. I wish both Michael and Jason the best of luck but I just can not help either one of them, and tonight I provided my last assistance to either of them on their cases; you both have brought this on yourselves and you both have finally caused me to say enough is enough and it is time to move on with my life.

So best of luck to both of you in the future and I hope Michael that you find a way to save your life and Jason I do hope you find a way to be back with your family too, but it is time for me to say goodbye to both of you.