Too Good to Be True!

It was the beginning of June 2008 and the summer weather filled the air. I had an errand to run at school so I went there to take care of that and thus this story began.

During this particular school year I was lonely and I was looking for a companion. It had been almost a year since I'd been alone and I had no luck finding anyone. I began eyeing this young lady who was different from everyone else. She was pretty and she had a personality that attracted me to her even more. I had a hard time giving her hints that I had a crush on her but it seemed like every attempt ended in failure. After a few months I decided to do a bit more. Valentines day was coming up and she was the first girl on my mind. I got her some candy and a card but I was afraid to give it to her so I had my friend give it to her. She accepted it and asked me about it the next day. I felt shy about it so the conversation was brief. Why can't I just come out with it already?

After a while we exchanged Instant messenger Id's and we began chatting. The conversations would be long at last until the late hours of the morning. I would ask her how would she feel being in a relationship with me. She would tell me she felt as if I could make a difference in her life and that made me happy that someone would feel this way about me.The night before I was chatting online with her and we planned to see each other at the school the next day with a bunch of my friends which were and still are like my brothers. When I arrived near school I can see them up the block in front of the school gathering to go hang out as we always did. She came running up the block and hugged me which I found to be nice. After a few oooohhhh's and aaaaahhhh's from the guys I went inside to handle my business and came out like 7 minutes later.

I came out ready to go hang and to my surprise she was on another guy!!! I was furious! I knew what we talked about all those nights and I couldn't believe this was happening! Everyone proceeded to go hang out and as we were walking around I was just watching them together and I was getting more angry as the time passed by. After walking for a little while, we decided to go to the park. This park was huge and there were a lot of activities going on including baseball games and practice, tag, jogging etc. We decided to sit down and watch the fun. As we sat there she and her male friend decided to go take a walk around the park. When she came back I seen a big smile on her face and I was angry but I kept cool. As time went by and we had a little fun in the park we decided to leave the park. When we left the park her friend had to go. When he left she said she wondered who would keep her company.

I was hoping she wasn't going to come to me because I had a few mean words in my mind for her. We went to one friends house and sat on the front steps and they were playing dominoes and To my surprise she started to flirt with my friend! I couldn't believe this! Am I that bad? Do I look or smell that bad? I really couldn't understand what was going on! Time went on and we left that friends house and went to the next friends house which was the last stop for the night. The two of them continued to fool around and by this time I had enough. We left to go home and she didn't say anything to me. She messaged me like 1 month later asking was I mad at her. I asked her what do you think? She said she was sorry for what she did but she didn't want to talk about it. I was forgiving but I can't help but think why me?