True Repentence

He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" Acts 9: 4

April 2, 1945
I saw my old neighbor in the crowd today. Nobody ever told me he was a...he moved out when I was eight...I didn't know. I swear to God, I didn't know!

April 3, 1945
I saw the old man again. And someone else too. A girl. She went to school with me. What's going on?

April 5, 1945
I've seen over a dozen familiar faces now. I don't know how long any of them have been here. I don't know how many are still alive.

April 6, !945
I need to stop thinking about this. If they found out about this diary, I might be shot.

April 10, 1945
I can't stand this. I know so many of these people. How can I do this?

April 11, 1945
Thinking

April 14, 1945
What am I doing?

April 20, 1945
Why are we doing this? What does this possibly achieve?

April 21, 1945
I don't think I'll ever get the blood off my hands.

April 23, 1945
We're damned. I'm damned. My comrades are damned. My family is damned. My nation is damned.

April 24, 1945
I can't stand this! If there is a God in Heaven, then kill me now! Take back the breath you gave me!

April 26, 1945
We're losing the war. We're supposed to kill them all tomorrow. If you have never heard anything I have ever said in my entire life, still hear me now. Give them speed. Let the Allies get here first. Before the sun rises, bring them to our gates!

But the other criminal rebuked him. "Don't you fear God," he said, "since you are under the same sentence? 41We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong." 42Then he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.^[f]" 43Jesus answered him, "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise."