Unseen Eyes

Watching Patiently from All Around

*Shell*
Hysterically crying in my room the night my best friend passed away from leukemia, at the early age of 10 years old. Feelings became unknown to me as I could not fully understand what had just happened in my life. Knowing my friend was always sick from here to there, but not fully understanding the meaning of his sickness, I began to feel very angry. At this point in my life I was very religious and church bound every weekend. I hadn't experienced anything so emotional wrong yet in life.

While alone in my room to cry and ponder on the events taken, I began to feel very angry with God for taking my friend away from me, my family, and all who loved him. Almost immediately after thinking these bad thoughts against God and his will, a very bright light, and I been the brightest I have ever seen in my whole life, appeared in front of me for a only a minute or two. In with this light was the voice and faint figure of my just passed friend. Speaking only these words to me" You shall not be afraid Michelle, nor angry, for I am now in my heaven, and no longer sick, I am free to be me again, I love you dear friend, fare well."

Although this message and encounter was not meant to scare or harm me at all, I was only 10 years old, and my mind was racing with confused thoughts. Not telling a soul about this night, I fell asleep for fear that I would get into trouble for making up such an imaginative story.

The morning came and went, and from that day forward my angry feelings with God had passed and I remained at peace for a little while longer yet in my life.

Being 10 years old, one would say I was still young enough to want to imagine such a thing happening to me, but I can assure you that it did and no imaginative tale was told.

Published by *Shell*

A young mother of 1 and expecting. Currently a stay at home mother enjoying the time spent with her son and husband and working on freelance writing, and freelance transcription.  View profile

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  • leroy coffie7/13/2010

    nice work. I also lost my best friend to cancer

  • *Shell*6/28/2010

    Thank you Peter

  • Peter Sereduke6/28/2010

    as always...well done

  • *Shell*6/28/2010

    Thank you Jack! :)

  • Jack Wellman6/28/2010

    THis is so special Michelle. I must say I am so impressed by this personal story of suffering. Losing your friend at that age, no wonder you were angry at God. I think it is only human and I myself have been angry at God for the father who left me when I was born, the mother who didn't want me, etc. But I discovered that, in time, I really DID have a father. THE Father. Great work. Love your work.

  • Carla M. Swinke6/27/2010

    Thank you for sharing. Shows the meaning of friendship!

  • *Shell*6/27/2010

    He did, and I loved him as much as a ten year old could! He was my neighbor, my first kiss, my only true friend of that time!

  • Delicia Powers6/27/2010

    What a wondeful experience! There are many things in life that have no explanation, only the feeling they leave behind. Your friend must have loved you very much!

  • *Shell*6/27/2010

    David, Yes I am doing fine, and have come to the realization that God works in mysterious ways, and that although you may not know the whys and what of his plans, later in life, upon your own experiences one can reflect back on the past and say "oh maybe this happened because of this" and whatnot....

  • David A. Reinstein, LCSW6/27/2010

    ... and you survived to recall and tell it ... Life is not fair, but you are doing OK...

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