Verbal Abuse and Torment

Lonely, feeling she is someone who will never become

She gives the love of her life her all; everything

Why doesn't he appreciate something; anything

Selfishly, he blames her for his own regrets

She is paving the way for "them", he forgets

She has started a great career in which she should be proud

He says she's nothing better than a waitress, repetitively loud

Financially and emotionally she has paid the way for the both of them

Done more than a single person could, just to show her care for him

In return he shows her fault, degradation, and threats

Out of control he is to her now, no more disrespects

Only recent, vicious cycles of anger is all he seems to know; he's lost his controls

Breaking and throwing her personal belongings, doors decorated, new holes

Soon she fears will be the day, his anger will reach her body, her face

Running away from him in his anger, the bedroom door, she does race

Directly behind her, pursuing the fight further, she can't shut the door

Turning her thoughts into panic and fright, she pushes him; "survivor"

Regretful that she put her hands upon him, she had to make aware

She wasn't to put up with his verbal abuse and threats, beware

Guilty of the worst crimes in a relationship were they both; to each other

Her hands should have never pushed on his chest, a reaction she'd done never

His continuous insults, threats, and anger had driven her to what she had done

Leaving both of them in mental anguish and multitudes of unexplainable pain

Why couldn't he just leave her alone, let her get away and let time remain?

In pursuit to control her, always demeaning her, bombarding her

Resulting in constant ponders, her love deep, whilst his was where?

Time apart the best answer, or was it time she set him free

Her life she never imagined, now close to being a vivid reality

Pain and anguish, her head down whenever he is present or near

Strong she might seem, but eye contact she would not indulge in her fear

He would see the pain in her eyes, she must hide her weakness, disappear

Her life she strives to improve, finally resulting to the positive

Until the evening when they meet, happiness gone, dismissive

Happily she walks into the room, the lectures and attitudes are her "hello"

The sunshine of day gone from her sight, a bad mood now all she can bestow

Always reminded he has paid for dinner and her smokes

Always the issue of the things she needs, he pokes

Is this how he shows his love, by threatening to take them away?

All that ever matters is how much on her he did spend that day

Telling her he is stupid for buying her dinner when all day she hadn't eaten

Never spending any money, not just her mind, now her body taking a beaten

From 6 a.m. until 2 a.m. she has work and school to occupy her mind

Being told she didn't work, useless, and alone in the world she was to find

Investing in everything she does to make a brighter and more comfortable home

For her son and what she thought was the love of her life, what now is to come?

A few days and things seem to calm; thoughts fill her mind things will improve

Submissively she forgets what has been done, instantly he starts with his disprove

Everything is her fault, his unhappiness in his life are hers to blame

All she does never enough, unappreciated, her investment in vain

Decisions is becoming clearer now with each and every passing moment

Realization one day he will see, too late it shall be, she does comment

Blaming her that she hasn't tried, all her fault why they are falling apart

Emotionally tied to him, she begins to see the time they shall depart

Best for the both of them, emotionally and physically, she must set him free

Her mind and body weak and exhausted, she is a survivor, fine she will be

He knows it as well, the fear apparent in his eyes, she is on her way

Not many chances left for him to beg her once again to please stay

The decision is really his to make, whether with her or without her, is he willing to change

Meantime, her finances improving, she prepares herself to leave him and his derange

Repair doesn't seem an option, but she won't leave with "what if's" and regrets

One last chance of compromise, she sends a message asking only for his respects

To love her and treat her right; is he prepared to make everything again alright

Or to end right now, either decision, his, they would discuss together tonight

She would not live in pain and fear any more, those days were gone, removed

A hard struggle ahead, with or without him, she knew she would make it improved

Her life's rewards were just starting, and if it wasn't meant for them to be

Prepared for either outcome, her answers would finally be answered, see

Whether or not he ever loved her would become clear to her finally

His decision would prove whether he was in it financially or emotionally