What Good is it to Inherit the World If You Lose Your Soul

I see so many beautiful women on Doctor Phil and other shows, throwing their lives away on chasing money by using sex as a way to earn money. Now they say a man is taking care of them. Is there a ring on their finger? Do these men respect them? Gucci shoes look nice but I wouldn't prostitute myself for them.

I had been alone for many years and through focusing on myself, men finally want me. Want to marry me. No easy feat in New Jersey. All it took was a little self love and realizing that men weren't grabbing at me because I was desperate. Maybe they were, but I wasn't. And I needed to look for a way to work out creatively. That's when I took up belly dancing. And I got a bunch of inexpensive fashion jewelry. And suddenly, a 28 year old virgin is finally getting some more long term interest.

I realize I had been focusing on all the wrong things before. Like looking for a man to make me complete. I realize as much as I would like, a man will not marry a big woman unless there is something wrong with him. Its just natural selection. So I focused on the problem and learned to take better care of myself, and men finally want to marry me.

So when I see a woman who uses sex to get things, I am appalled, and it makes things harder for the good girls. I don't want a man who would pay for sex. I'm not looking for a lot of guys. One good one is good enough for me. And I can't help it if people have yelled at me or hit me growing up. It didn't turn me into a hooker. I just want a house to raise a little family in and to be able to be creative. One man I met wanted 8 kids. Not for me. Sorry. Good luck.

I have to take care of myself and take things easy. Its not worth working myself sick to have a high pressure job. For what? So I can die younger? Forget it. I don't have enough testosterone for that. I have a job working at a photography studio. And I enjoy the creative things I do. While more money would be nice, I don't think I need to make millions of dollars just to say I did it. I don't want a hundred lovers, or really the stress of men wanting me for my money. There are plenty of users out there. And while designer clothes might be nice, and expensive cars are a status symbol and a big mansion is really cool. I'd have to say, I like being able to take care of my things and I couldn't possibly take care of 100 houses. Or a garage full of cars.

And while I could have any one of the six men that wanted me at work, I prefer not to fraternize with customers. I just don't see the glamour in being treated like a toy. I read many books about surviving as a woman. My brothers may have hit me and called me names, but I would be disrespecting God, if I didn't humble myself and accept his commandment that your supposed to love someone you marry.

Sometimes, you're better off alone, if someone can't see how amazing you are. Just the way God made you. I want undying devotion. Someone who wants to make a life with me. I'm not looking to play house with a loser. I'm not saying you should marry a drunk gambler or anything, I just don't see how you can take love for granted that you would trade your body for money. I was appalled at these ignorant women trading love for pleasure. I wouldn't want to marry the type of man who wants a Stepford wife or a Barbie. I don't want him for his money, so why should I have to apologize for wanting a relationship. Just because Hollywood makes it harder for people to treat each other decently, as long as your expectations are kept realistic, and you respect each other, I think a loving relationship with the man being a provider is ok. Its just not ok to not love the one your with. I want love, and I wish you the same.