What If????

Honesty is always the best policy. Well, when dealing with yourself that is. Too many people fuck with my head to not follow what I think about. I might be paranoid but it still doesn't mean people aren't fucking with me, fucking with my fucking head. It's true we all look at the world differently, but we all lead completely separate lives. We might be connected in one respect, but in another, we are insular, experiencing alien landscapes compared to our brother or sister who may live next door. The fucked up part is that we are all treated as one breathing mass. Just because we share oxygen do we really share anything else. We are a construct not only of our inherited D.N.A., but also what our eyes see and our hearts feel. I may see red as your blue. You may see black as my white. You may well think you're not doing any harm, but I would think you are taking the piss. We all see and kill photons of light. We destroy just by being able to see the world around us. But we remember, we hardly ever forget.

Friends. Do we really ever have any that don't take the piss. Or am I being paranoid. Does anyone else ever say what they truly feel without censoring it on the way out of the brain to the fucking shizer spitting mouth.

Then again I could well be wrong. I'd like to think I'm wrong, anyway. I'd like to think we all have decent attitudes. Well I knew that to be bullshit as soon as I've just wrote it. It's a Shame that.

Typical life experience. It seems as soon as you become aware of things you realise the awful truth. Most people are wrapped up in themselves. Myself included, sometimes. Self-serving, snake swallowing its own tail; when do I eat my head?. Who can you really trust apart from yourself and even then you tend to fuck it up.

What if I had been born in Vietnam or Rwanda? What would I have become? What if I had been born in feudal Japan; a ninja I might have been. Or In medieval England or Spain? What could I have been? And. What am I now? Who can I excel my mind to become? What if? Who really am I? Who are we all?