What to Do when Life Fails You

And the World as it is. Due to the recent stresses you have placed upon me I have decided to take a day off. Maybe even a week, if things do not let up soon! Which won't help me financially or otherwise, but I feel it imperative to inform you.

Life, you have been very unfair to me despite my positive changes personally and professionally. In the past six month's alone, you have made it nearly impossible to want to continue our relationship. But as we both know, I hate failure and conceding to anything. Blame it on being a Virgo woman or forcing me to live manic all this time. I will not concede any win to you - at this time.

Life, you have handed me unreasonable bosses but this last time at a job I loved. Forcing me to make the choice to quit or face nervous breakdown again. And to further remind you, it was holiday time not the best days to be out searching for a new livelihood. Okay so I admit it forced us [family] to remember why we celebrated those holidays with humbleness. Couldn't you have been just a smidgen more subtle? This one was decidedly a draw!

Life, nearly 25 years ago, you handed me the toughest job I will ever face. I beat you at that one and raised my girl alone despite the odds of outcome. But YOU had to make sure I knew that I am not completely a winner yet. You keep after me everyday to make sure she gets into/finishes college like some crazy mantra in my head! But it is driving a horrible wedge between us when the subject arises, Life. Don't you understand that? She already moved out because she doesn't want to hear or fight about it anymore. Won't you let up on me and go bug her about this?

Life (the World too), this is by far the worst trick you have ever played on me! And there have been some pretty bad ones throughout the years. Okay having to allow for mistakes, bad decisions and guilt by association I had some part in those too. But not this time! You have outdone yourself! Why the E-scam? What exactly is the meaning of this horrible tragedy that has befallen me in the last few weeks? I know YOU can't use the money.

Life, what was your purpose in sending thieves my way? I did not seek out any get rich schemes or put a target on my back begging for heartless scum to take advantage of me! You and I both know I am smarter than that. This time though you made those damn pirates smarter. I cannot forgive you for that. They stole my hard earned money and no one but me cares. I understand that it isn't national tragedy, but no one wants to help, least of all Washington Mutual Bank.

Life, you have wreaked a plague upon me that is destroying everything I have worked to overcome and build up. This little lesson you have wrought on me has snuffed out my bank account, line of credit AND left me overdrawn nearly $1000.00. if you didn't laugh enough over that joke.... All the wonderful fees, banks and commerce are now heaping on for the outstanding checks that were already out, is truly hilarious! I can't begin to imagine what this is doing to my credit rating after getting a late start in life. I am willing to bet it is doing a swan dive as I write this ditty. Thank you Wamu for furthering my distrust of banks. Especially after our long standing association that was mutually beneficial.

Life, if you weren't already aware that being out of work for two months. Thereby forced to borrow money from relatives to survive is hard enough by itself. Only to be scammed just when getting back to work can become the brink of devastation, then I have been useful. Won't you reciprocate? Get off your high and mighty and help me find answers or minor miracle before eminent implosion occurs.

Life (and the World), please ask someone to help me! The local FBI flat out said No. The Nevada State Attorney General's office acted like I had Small Pox. The Clark County District Attorney said they don't handle cashier's checks or fraud of this type. The Las Vegas Metro Police Department filed a report, but has never initiated calls or returned my calls let alone asked for my evidence of fraud. And Wamu told me repeatedly they would handle an "investigation" and give me a provisional credit until the matter was settled. OOOP's, that is also incorrect information. It was an outrageous lie! No investigation was done. Just a form letter sent. Thanks again Wamu.

Life, as we have discussed many times before...I cannot handle the stress. It makes the manic thrills happen more frequently, which is risk to my job and being. Are you out to destroy me completely? You seem determined to take me backward even though I am not as young and resilient anymore. This brazen boldness is unacceptable to me. So back off, will you!

Life (and the World), I refuse to give in again. Toleration is among my qualities but this time it will not be. Therefore, I am stepping back and taking the day off, as previously stated, maybe a week if that's what it takes. Space and time are necessary to figure out any alternatives you might have left me. You did, right? You couldn't be that cruel.

Life, deep down it might not be the optimum decision I know. A necessary assessment must be made though if I am to sanely, survive all that you have thrown at me recently. I am not asking for too much, I hope? Even though, at this juncture I am past the point of caring. And that is what scares me most of all! Did I mention, I hate horror stories?

Life, if I allow you to take that quality away from me. The same way Company Evaluation Consultants stole my money - then what is left to this relationship? I have lost trust and any hope to get my humility restored. Right? So why should caring not take a flight out the window also? Then I can become scum and hurt others by my pathetic excuse for being. See why I need time off from this kinship we have? C'mon, be useful won't you?

So in closing, dear Life and the World, this dialogue has been opened with sincere honesty. Please allow me to thank you, in advance, for understanding my position in this matter. For if it is not obtained, my fear is that "devastation brink" spoken of several paragraphs ago will no longer be a laughing matter on this side. This time off will not be squandered like a vacation. Rather serious introspection and decision making will be the mandate. It must be if we are to continue our liason, Life. Even if it has to be in this World, such as it is.

Life, Once again, thank you for your time and consideration to my simple request. I will to the best of my ability solve these inconveniences you have bestowed upon me without formal notice or prior consideration. During my absence try to remember how much I contribute each day as an asset and not a liability.

Best Regards,

Another Living Sucker

PS: If anyone reading this knows of or has any information regarding these horrible scam artists Company Evaluation Consultants that would be helpful to my situation. Please contact me immediately. With many Thanks!