What was I Supposed to Worry About Today?

Here lately I've had to be on high alert about what thoughts I let run through my head. I know why thinking is so hard sometimes and why the Bible tells us to "think on these things." The thoughts in your head will take off like wild fire, burning up all the other thoughts you were trying to create by thinking. I see how people get obsessed. It's like adding fuel to a fire when you let thoughts take over your mind. They start out little and then before you know it, they're huge! They seem like monsters. Some are downright scarey, but you can't quit thinking these stupid thoughts. They cast shadows in your mind so the little thoughts you want to grow can't because you look at those thoughts just barely springing up above the surface and you've got these big huge thoughts scaring the heck out of ya so all you can do is think about those ugly dumb lying thoughts.

Well, after laying it on the line with God, I decided I wasn't going to be scared anymore. It's in His hands. The sad thing is, my situation really isn't all that bad. Well, okay so it is a little rough. All it is are two bills, no, three bills that we need to pay pretty quick. Jeff just started a job and his paycheck and the due date for the bills are about a week or two apart and guess which comes first. Anyway, my huge scarey thoughts kept trying to tell me that this was devastating. Silly me forgot I could tell my Daddy about it and He would take care of it.

These big stupid monster thoughts kept trying to convince me that I'd get my hopes up thinking He would take care of it and that I couldn't depend on Him and then there I'd be...devastated. So, I've been going on guard every day before I even open up my eyes in the morning and I stay that way until well after I close my eyes at night. This morning, before I opened my eyes I heard the thoughts start running through my mind and it jolted me awake. Wait a minute, what was that I was hearing in my head? My God is in control...My God is in control. Over and over it kept going. I couldn't make it stop, nor did I try. I was relieved. Those dumb lying good for nothing little thoughts had finally gotten the wind knocked out of them.

Oh I'm still on guard, but I've got more important things to worry about. Things like what am I going to cook for dinner? Oh yeah, tuna casserole. I also need to get some meat out of the fridge to thaw for tomorrow's dinner and I've got that squash I could steam to go with dinner tonight...and I need to put those clothes in the dryer and turn on the heater in the living room before it starts getting too cold. See I've got plenty of good things to worry about!